Se que la forma en la que buscó dar y recibir amor es una forma enfermiza de necesitar amor,busco y hago todo lo relacionado al violento metro....carajo solo busco a alguien que me maltrate y se deje maltratar.... pero al mismo tiempo detesto esa idea enferma....eso no es amor es ejercer violencia y es algo que buscó... quiero que me hiera, que me límite con quién socializo... quiero tener la nece... » Continue Reading
basically this sounds rlly bad but the guy I'm in love with who doesn't like me back, I sorta like his best friend now. it's actually kinda weird bc I've kinda liked his best friend since January but haven't wanted to admit it to myself. so me and his bsf, both sit next to each other in ap Euro. and this guy tries to talk to me every chance he gets, about literally nothing. it's actually pretty ad... » Continue Reading
oh goooddd I needed to vent this out somewhere, ts a lot so uhm yes. BACKSTORY: I got this ex "S" and we were dating last year for like a few months, we broke up bcs he was to mentally ill and wtv. So next school year we were in different classes and I was cool w it problem is that he kept adding, unadding and blocking me on snap and I was getting so fed up bcz just man cup ur mind u fucking bipol... » Continue Reading
i wouldn't want to come off as insensitive, or an attention seeker, but i wanted to get this out of my chest somehow. i know it's kind of stupid to use my page as a diary, but i don't really have anyone else to talk to. there wasn't a day when i doubted my feelings towards my boyfriend in the last two years. it feels so weird. two whole years. i'm glad i spent them with him. but i sometimes doubt ... » Continue Reading
Draw a breath in, keep your eyes on me, try to control how you're shaking, take in every detail, every sensation, your body remembers first. I'll cloud your nervous system, your skin will drink up my warmth, you hope that I'll be here with you forever, and I do too. » Continue Reading
So this past month has been a. interesting experience??? I hate how I’ve been lied to. Like my best friend (which is now my ex bestfriend), literally called me annoying after I asked all the time. “I don’t wanna hear about your relapsing, it makes me uncomfortable.” Okay, so you can tell me now? π and didn’t tell me later when I first vented to you? If you don’t want me to vent fine. Like? and I... » Continue Reading
Man I hate being sheltered and homeschooled because I WANT A GF SO BAD and I’ll never get one because my family is Christian (I am too but I’m not homophobic or judging) and im a loser lesbian nerd,i suffer so freaking much bc I keep seeing so many pretty girls even my moots on tiktok that I talk to have gfs a and I get so jealous AAAUGGGHH not even mentioning how shy I am irl so even if a girl fl... » Continue Reading
If you don't know the whole story, i advice you to read my other blogs. So, yesterday i went with two of my friends (pitaya, and melon) to a park. And i invited kiwi too (the friend of the boy i used to like). It was really fun hanging out with them, like I laughed a LOT, and he seemed more confortable talking to me i think. And there was two "What do you mean?!" One of them was when he said he... » Continue Reading
I Met Someone Special I met this amazing guy on a money app, and honestly, he’s the best man I’ve ever talked to—like, ever . He’s so good to me, treats me with real care, and makes me feel special in a way no one else has. » Continue Reading