i made this account 4 years ago. To my knowledge, the last time i was active i was 19. i hate the way my layout currently looks, but i need to get the words out of my head before they slip away from me. i moved away from my hometown about 2ish years ago. since then, i've really struggled socially. mainly because i don't put myself out there, but also because i think i might have high expectations... » Continue Reading
hey all of y'alls! so, since I'm not really posting as much art as I want to (sorry for that, I'm just as disapointed as you are) I decided "hey, what if I ask a thing a day in order to keep me and my blog going?" which is how we got here! so, without further adew (and ado) my question, for today isssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss (drumroll pretty please): " What's Som » Continue Reading
Dear Diary, I think people that constantly talk about masculinity and being manly are gayer than dudes that suck dick. I dont know if im more pissed off or if i feel bad, but dudes who try so hard to up their mental testosterone 24/7 just make me sad. Imagine being unable to enjoy things just cause it doesnt fit with your view on masculinity and gender norms. Imagine being stuck in such a restrict... » Continue Reading
I was in a BAD spot September-January, like fuck. I really did... Attempt... Sort of. Small summary: I tried to jump. I, uh, didn't. Not even because I was scared. I was really ready truly. I asked a stranger I passed for a cigarette and smoked for the first time. I decided on a song to die to and played it over and over. Anyway, when I actually got to the bridge, a dog showed up. Deadass, a pitbu... » Continue Reading
Its like 10PM and 25F degrees with snow on the ground... its April!!! Why snow!!! No but I do prefer winter weather to summer weather tho, cuz i hate sweating and snow is pretty But its super windy and I hate wind.. I like a good breeze but not this much wind, n i needed a smoke n my cig smoke kept blowing back in my face lmao I need to paint my nails black eventually but I've been too lazy to » Continue Reading
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my bf and i just broke our engagement well he did i still wanted to be with him why is that it hurts worst than my 3 year relationship » Continue Reading
Hi again, me here again, hi. It's been about 4 weeks since I sat down and wrote anything, and thats mostly cause I don't have any motivation to do anything. I think if I tell myself that this relieves some part of my stress, I'll be more incentivized to do it, ch'know? Anyway, in my other little weird post blog things, I mentioned my music and stuff with my brother and friend, and I think we've se... » Continue Reading