so i like another guy💔

basically this sounds rlly bad but the guy I'm in love with who doesn't like me back, I sorta like his best friend now. it's actually kinda weird bc I've kinda liked his best friend since January but haven't wanted to admit it to myself. so me and his bsf, both sit next to each other in ap Euro. and this guy tries to talk to me every chance he gets, about literally nothing. it's actually pretty adorable. and one time this guy's friend (one who I'm not in love with, but is pretty fine) pointed out me and the guy I like were matching and he was like all shy about it and it was very cute. we make extremely intense eye contact like 5 times in a single period in ap euro. we don't have any other classes together. and he gets almost nervous around me I think?? I could be delusional. like he almost does this little stim of tapping his hand on the desk repeatedly, and I looked at his hand when he was doing it and I guess he noticed and he stopped, which he must of thought was bothering me or found it weird or something but I found it very adorable. I feel like I have some sort of effect on him, which is funny because I almost dont on anybody. but it's a little awkward bc I barley know him except for the fact he's my crush's bsf.. who's now also my crush. very very awkward. but it's also like embarrassing bc i am scared to tell my friends about him bc one of them hates him and the other will bully him for being ugly 😭 like he's an ugly short guy but I lowkey love him. he's smart and pretty funny just rlly nerdy.