Is it wrong to believe in getting worse to get better ? Is it wrong to think that potentially harming myself to get better in the end is bad ? I won't name you here .. but I've been feeling the difference between our relationship .. Do you still love me ? I feel so separated from you now , does your heart beat for someone else ? Or have you just simply lost feelings for me ? Is it possible what yo... » Continue Reading
Dear diary, Today I drew a looot of stuff. I dont wanna paste it here though. Well, I also drew with my friend Noodle!! I love spending time with her. well, I gotta go finish my homework, I'll write tomorrow. -Mayrie, 11/12/04 » Continue Reading
Too many eyes on me. This is not a perfomance or my own play. Could you go and leave me here? There is nothing interesting to see. There is no need to worry about having nothing to see. Can you stop looking at me like that? There are a lot of presentations, you don't have to come and see mine. But applaud, applaud while you still can. (sorry if the translationg is wrong, i don't speak english too ... » Continue Reading
You feel cruel, Ben I just want to drink, I just want to feel I don’t want your hands on me I don’t want to do what you want to do I don’t want anything with you You have no warmth, Ben I just want to sleep, I just want to dream I don’t want your body on mine I don’t want your touch Won’t you just beat it? You make me sick, Ben I just want to feel pretty, I just want fake love » Continue Reading
If I want to love you, I need to start with myself. Though I have not much love stored in this wretched heart, I want to try. I want to try to love you. So I will start by loving myself first before I give you my whole self. Wait for my love. I want to do you by right. I want to love you the way you wanted to be loved. So please, wait for me. Heaven awaits me and it's you. » Continue Reading
I’ll count the days on my calendar for pleasure every day, on this day, leading up to the number I am the calendar, I am the memory Rows and rows across my sleeve Minutes are what I bleed The aftermath on the floor The days I spent waiting Punctured on my skin, grey memoirs grey into red that fades as time ahead Still resemble my growing patience My sin was overdue My sin, the highest crime I » Continue Reading
ok so ye this is chapter 1:> Dear Diary, Looking back, I never liked TBU. All i did was go to class, go to my dorm, read my book, do my homework, sleep, then do it again. I didn't have a roommate to talk to for my first few months on campus. I also hated my major at first, but I learned to love it. It eventually meant i would have classes with my new roommate, Frankie. I didn't like them at first ... » Continue Reading
I look into your eyes and see nothing but pupils. In his I saw life, love and desire. When your skin touches mine, I don’t feel any warmth, and if anything, I just your feel sweat. I thought it was supposed to feel good, being in someone’s arms, but when i’m in yours I just want to push you away. I don’t know why I let you, it’s not like I like it, and it’s not like I like you, but being alone is ... » Continue Reading