i never understood my brain’s happy feet. the constant tap dancing. at least remove the shoes. i don’t care for the ruckus. i hear the clanking of the metal toes, and the harsh clonking of the heels. that’s great. i can hear it. was there ever a doubt? » Continue Reading
i woke up feeling good today. the feeling ceased to persist after full consciousness. i originally felt everything aligned from top to bottom, left to right. i felt good » Continue Reading
it’s a weird feeling. i feel like i can get up and function without restraint. sometimes, it feels like i can fly. the excitement i currently feel makes me wonder if i’ve ever felt it before. » Continue Reading
it's kind of funny. i'm interested in the ways my mind ignites from different topics—different stimuli. what gets me from neutral to something—someone connected. i'm empty so often it feels like. when i get a slight spark, it's so calming. i grow evermore disconnected from this reality but feel i connect to something i've always dreamed of. that's my dream. i see now. i could never word it because... » Continue Reading
it’s different i say. it has to be different because if it isn’t different, i can’t justify myself ever trying in the first place. i feel like a waste of space, but i know nothing really holds value if you don’t want it to. i understand that the world was here before and will be here after, and then it won’t be bec » Continue Reading
so... in a past blog entry, i mentioned my weight loss. a whole 10 pounds. crazy, i know. actually, there's no need for the sarcasm. it was, and still is, very much concerning. well, things never got better. i don't mean to trigger anyone who may read this. i will try to choose my words very carefully. i have done nothing but lose weight and lose more weight. i think it's bad, but i have no way to... » Continue Reading
ABBA - If It Wasn't For The Nights I'm trying to type this blog post, but Grammarly attacks me when I haven't finished a sentence. I know it's not written well. I'm still typing. Every little thing makes me want to explode, but I can't actually explode, so instead, I am stuck feeling like I will. I swear, new issues are emerging just to make me upset. Thanks a lot. I don't appreciate it. » Continue Reading