i am tired!!!!!! almost thought myself into a panic attack earlier today but its cool now. took advantage of the warm weather to run a load of laundry and dry it outside so im feeling powerful. got high and started analyzing my appearance and finally made the decision to take my right snakebite out » Continue Reading
guess whos been flopping and guess whos shocked. nobody. im on the couch with suki right now after a long night of CLEANING!!!! Ive been going at it since i got home from work. I tidied the rec room and finally conquered part 1 of my laundry situation. to sum it up, the first problem of my laundry situation that ive shared with the masses is the giant pile of laundry in the corner of my chamber. i... » Continue Reading
its the last day of writepril and i am SO UTTERLY SORRY for my flops the past few days. i am going to write a long ass post today to make up for it. i wanted to do a grand finale where i made like 3 posts in one day but i was giving time to the moment and im glad i did because while i was flopping i actually had a really lovely few days. my last entry was thursday during work so i’ll start after t... » Continue Reading
hiiiii guysssss s im feeling not awful today just a bit tired! gonna try and keep the good feelings UP And simply do magic on my depression so it disappears! currently marvelling at the fact that im already halfway done my shift and all ive done is steam today. which means i was steaming for 3.5 hours. that shit takes FOREVER but its kinda therapeutic seeing the wrinkles disappear. and i just get ... » Continue Reading
my days of feeling spent caught up to me and i woke up feeling like shite today so i called in to work. i think maia sensed i was in a bad mood or not feeling well or whatever and she asked if i needed anything and i said i really wanted a big gulp so she took me to get one. thank god for sisters. we got big gulps and then she got me mcdonalds and we got home and i watched the dollhouse eps of pre... » Continue Reading
getting back to my writepril consistency wooooooo. its because im back to having so many thoughts that i need to shit them out. i distract myself by seeing my friends all the time but after a while i revert to my introversion and live in my head even when im physically with people. but especially when im not. like right now! my boss (tosh) has a showing until 12:30 and i got all of my tasks done b... » Continue Reading
short writepril today cuz im zausted. i saw my bestiest girls all day and had our long awaited tea party and everything was so scrumptious the real party was in my freakin mouth. we did all the things girls do: practice our play, sing, dance, lip sync for our lives, make tiktoks, and FEAST! squad days are always so fantastic even when you get bonked on the bean i love my girlz. I am actually jones... » Continue Reading
slow but sweet day today. woke up angsty, decided to be gracious with myself by not showering (sometimes i consider a shower being gracious with myself but i also have this ritual of showering and doing my makeup a certain way and perpetuating a physical self that im more comfortable with) and overall trying to take less account of how i look and more of how i feel. i went to a vintage store in ha... » Continue Reading
feeling unmotivated as crap today cuz ive just had such a boring day!!!! did the same task at work for 6.5 hours. its not as bad as it sounds my tistic ass loves to have an easy repetitive task but staring at a computer screen for 6.5 hours and clicking is not as conducive to brain function as it may seem. been in a little bout of the pression….. that sharp jerk from cold to hot back to cold reall... » Continue Reading
so many emotions and so much fun today!! crazy that i was ranting and raving about how hard it is for me to be alone romantically at times yesterday and then today find out my ex who robbed me blind of 3 years of my life has a new girlfriend. there is a part of me that would love to take that information and be psycho and destructive but i dont even care enough to do anything like that. it really... » Continue Reading
i am finally caught up!! i know i posted 4 hours ago already but i wanna post while im thinking about it. apologies for the gay ass post earlier i was having a shitty brain day until i got home and smoked weed, funny how that works isnt it? using my other silly little vice to suppress my other silly little vice. Work wasnt bad or anything but i WAS steaming samples for like 4 hours and thats fine ... » Continue Reading
i freaking flopped on writepril day 15 and now its day 16. what a mess. good thing i have a solid alibi in that the reason is ive been hanging out with my girls all weekend! i went to a bar and made new friends on friday with maia and skyler and i kept saying i wanted them to get super drunk so i could feed off their energy and they delivered. poor maia had to go home early cuz she felt sicky and ... » Continue Reading