"write down 3 things to read back when things get difficult." being alive in a world that wants you dead is an act of resistance. there are so many forces in this fucked up world that are hoping for your downfall, or flat-out want you to stop existing. we can talk about being a good activist all day, but that tends to be a really difficult standard to live up to when you're struggling, so sometim... » Continue Reading
hello all! today, cy (bob) and i went to panera. it's been really nice out and we wanted to get an early dinner, so we drove over there and placed an order. he got mac and cheese in a bread bowl, and i got a croque monsieur on croissant bread. not bad for an american croque monsieur, but it pales in comparison to the ones my dad makes. the bread was really nice though! i also got an iced coffee, w... » Continue Reading
i've been starting to put in genuine effort to treat my sensitive tummy a little bit better. i have sucrose and fructose intolerance- it's like lactose intolerance but less common and with a different type of sugar. sucrose is usually found in candy and table sugar, and fructose is found in fruits and non-diet soda. then it gets complicated. most simple carbs- white bread, pasta, white rice, potat... » Continue Reading
hello all! today, it's been unusually warm. like 76°f in march warm. i'm choosing to ignore the worrying reasons for the unusual warmth (at least until i'm in a more stable mental state) and i'm choosing to have a nice day. i woke up and put on my favourite pair of denim shorts that i haven't worn since september, and a slightly-too-small pusheen the cat shirt. i decided to accessorise with lots o... » Continue Reading
hello all! i'm typing this from my 16 year old laptop, edgar. i love "old reliable" to bits, and i refuse to replace him, even though he can't run windows 11. honestly, new tech can kiss my ass. you're telling me you want me to pay thousands of dollars for a computer that has 1 usb slot, no disc drive, and no user-swappable battery? fuck outta here. i'll stick with my dinosaur. sure he's falling a... » Continue Reading
for the last few years, i've been insecure about my singing voice. i have some musical training from childhood, but my 3 years of taking testosterone completely changed how i sound, including my vocal range, tune, and control. i sound a lot like a stereotypical gay guy, and i have absolutely no control over my falsetto voice- it ends up wobbling uncontrollably and i can't hold a note for long. but... » Continue Reading
today's christmas! i hope everyone is having a good day, whether or not you celebrate it. i woke up nice and early to open presents! my parents got me a jellycat smudge bear (which i promptly named cheerio), fabric paint, fabric mod podge, a nice-smelling candle, and a poster from my hyperfixation movie, electric dreams ! i quickly put the poster up in my bedroom, which was surprisingly difficult.... » Continue Reading
hello- i'm tired and i have the munchies. things have been okay, i suppose. ups and downs, as usual. i can be very sensitive and i get anxious at silly things, but i'm trying not to beat myself up about it- and otherwise things have been pretty good. i just exchanged gifts with bob and our friends, i babysat a girl from my first toddler class (she's 8 now and almost as tall as me), and i've been s... » Continue Reading
hello friends! today i'm gonna tell you about my current favourite animal: the norway lemming! norway lemmings are often called norwegian lemmings, and they're small, colourful rodents about the size of a syrian hamster. they live in the snowy tundra, and prefer to live near water. adult norway lemmings will feed on moss and grass. they are active both day and night, and take naps between periods ... » Continue Reading
so, i have like every goddamn mental illness under the sun (i'm exaggerating obviously), so most of my thoughts are pretty distorted and unhealthy. i'm always catastrophising, self-loathing, and basically feeling like the world is gonna end if my problem of the week doesn't get solved right this second. and lately, my concern has been the election. i'm really scared of donald trump winning the ele... » Continue Reading
today we're watching crappy halloween movies with our friends! we watched scary godmother 1 and 2, which are these horribly animated kids movies from 2003 (and when i say horribly animated i MEAN IT), and now we're watching frankenthumb, which is just frankenstein told by thumbs with faces. true cinema. we had pizza, chicken nuggets, candy, and brownies! as usual, i've been fiending for seltzer, a... » Continue Reading
i decided i'm going to start doing journal prompts on spacehey, whether they're private or public is up to me. today we're starting with a simple one: what are my core values, and why? authenticity: it's important for me to be the most authentic version of myself possible because masking gets you nowhere. pretending to be someone you're not only brings you stress and fake friends. when you're auth... » Continue Reading
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