"If there is a God, kill me please"
Any Pronouns, 6/5, EN/FIL, ENTP 7w8
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Category: Life
I fucking hate everyone in my family, when one of them gets mad, no one cares and then when I get mad because of them they go mad at me They force me to get mad so that they can berate the shit out of me, dickheads I hate them so much, I can't wait to die If I can't die then ill get a job, move out and never visit them including family gatherings, I hate them so much they ruin my mood everyday, s... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I have no hope, I don't want to grow up. I want to go back with my friends in my old school, I'm tired of being okay, I want to be happy with them, I want them back. I'm not hopeful, I'll end up growing depressed til the point that I'll kill myself and I don't want to worry anyone. I hate worrying people. The future is blank, I'm not hopeful. I'll end up homeless, my parents don't even care abo... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
As I age, everything feels worse, this will be my final year of junior high school. My plan is to commit suicide, I don't want to see anyone anymore, I'm sick of seeing everyone, I'm sick of hearing my own voice, I'm sick of looking at my face, I'm sick of knowing that my blood and flesh relates to them, I'm disgusted at myself, I'm a mistake, I don't wanna grow up with a job I hate and spend my y... » Continue Reading
Category: Goals, Plans, Hopes
You know what, I hate living, I hate acting all smiling to everyone while they treat me like a doormat. I fucking hate my family, I don't care, they favor my brother over me anyway. I want to graduate, get a job, and leave these fucking people in me life, I don't want to fucking see their faces ever again. I'll just send money and that's it, I fucking hate living here. I hate living, but I hate ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
"Oh ||||||||| you don't talk about your problems" It's because I keep them all to myself, venting about my problems feels disgusting, I doubt that the people who listened would care anyway. My parents said that I don't have any mental illness and that I (should) am normal, so I'll stick to that I only talk about my problems here, I feel comfortable. I don't like using my old vent account cuz my c... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I know that no one in my family cares about me. They only care about what or how I look, it's okay, I hate them too. I know they can't say that they hate or don't like me, but I know that. It doesn't hurt me since I've been always thinking about it for years ever since I was a child, I've done many embarrassing stuff, I know I was still a child back then, but it seems like they still see me as an... » Continue Reading
Category: Books and Stories
Her idea of love, and her backstory when she was young was really relatable. I couldn't relate her glow up since I haven't done that. The concept of love for Kokoa was really idealistic, its actually clear she is a selfish person, same goes for the MC, the both of them were dependent on each other. The both of them weren't a match from heaven, they are both broken, helpless and selfish people who... » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
In case if I die, I am dividing this letter. 10/2/24 10:55pm Part of my S/D note, Play Hello Charlotte, every game except Delirium (the lore is part of my life, mostly characters like Bennett, Anri Warhol, Charles Eyler, Q84, and Vincent Fennell) If I D!e in suicide: I guess the intrusive thoughts won, when I always say "I'M GONNA KILL MYSELF" I always mean it. Just a little trivia I want to apol... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
I don't really like being treated like rudely, I know I might be very sensitive about it but I really don't like it.. I am okay when friends hit me jokingly but it really hurts, it makes me trigger my fears that I might get hurt, slapping or pulling my hair reminds me of my past, I don't call it trauma since its not serious, but I really get scared when I get hit even if it's not intentionally, b... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
Last month 1.) How are things going in school? A. worse, I hate rumors and people misjudging me. 2.) Do you believe in god? A. No. why? God doesn't exist, I have tried my BEST to change, to be better, to FIT IN WITH OTHERS, JUST LIKE WHAT OTHER PEOPLE TOLD ME TO DO AND NOT DO. So, when I found out nothing has changed, I'm just a person who everyone hates in the end, I lost faith in hum » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
In grade 7, I would try to be "different" and be cringe like the others, I always did things like them in order to fit in, looking back, I should just d-e, I wish no one met me, I wish I could go back time to k-ll myself, I wish I was never friends with them in the first place. I'm a child who wants to be noticed by everyone, I always craved attention, I always do thing » Continue Reading
Category: School, College, University
I hate the school I go to, people misunderstand me, girls gossip about me because I did "something weird", shut up fake makeup girls, thick eyelashes, insecure, thick lipstick that melts in your facemask. at least I don't use my makeup often. classmates assumed that I'm a pick me girl in 7th grade for being talkative with the boys in class, I fit in with the boys since I'm shy around girls and don... » Continue Reading
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