Life

You know what, I hate living, I hate acting all smiling to everyone while they treat me like a doormat. I fucking hate my family, I don't care, they favor my brother over me anyway. 

I want to graduate, get a job, and leave these fucking people in me life, I don't want to fucking see their faces ever again. I'll just send money and that's it, I fucking hate living here. 

I hate living, but I hate dying since I need to be in pain

It's been 5 fucking years since I've been depressed, my birthday was like 14 days ago, that was the worst birthday of my life. 

I wanted to be left alone in my birthday since I don't feel like celebrating, I fucking hate celebrating my birthday because I fucking hate spending time with people who don't even appreciate/love me. 

You know what my parents did? Made me go to a fucking resort with my relatives because they told me that "Your relatives from Manila came here so we gotta make your birthday set place in a resort." Is it their birthday then? You won't even respect my wishes? Just as I thought, you guys never cared about me, only going to a fucking resort to guilt trip me into saying that I like it there just so I won't make anyone feel bad. I don't fucking care about them, let them go to a resort to their birthdays, not fucking MINE. 

 I can't wait for other countries to ruin this country, my country is already corrupt. Might as well wish that we'd get ruined but others. I hope I fucking die from them because there is no way I'd want to live in this hellhole longer.