Age

As I age, everything feels worse, this will be my final year of junior high school.

My plan is to commit suicide, I don't want to see anyone anymore, I'm sick of seeing everyone, I'm sick of hearing my own voice, I'm sick of looking at my face, I'm sick of knowing that my blood and flesh relates to them, I'm disgusted at myself, I'm a mistake, I don't wanna grow up with a job I hate and spend my years being single, It's not like I want to be with anyone after what those people did to me when I was growing up. I'll never get children, I don't want them, I don't want to do shit to them on what those dickheads did to me.

I'd rather be dead than show my child that I'm like them.

I should've killed myself a long time ago, why did I live for a couple of years for no development?

I don't care if there's hell or heaven, I'll know it when I die.

I'm tired of enduring this, I'm just wasting everyone's time, I'm sorry.