School

I hate the school I go to, people misunderstand me, girls gossip about me because I did "something weird", shut up fake makeup girls, thick eyelashes, insecure, thick lipstick that melts in your facemask. at least I don't use my makeup often.

classmates assumed that I'm a pick me girl in 7th grade for being talkative with the boys in class, I fit in with the boys since I'm shy around girls and don't understand them well, I assumed that girls at the school I'm in to are gossip girls, well it is true but 30% girls aren't like that.

classmates are grossed out by me for having a weird appearance and questionable personality.
Am I not allowed to express myself? I don't make fun or judge people, they judge me because of my habits, my hobbies and interests, they hate me for my attitude with my old friend, I deeply regret it and I am trying my best to change, but it seems like they still hate me, no wonder I'm in the other section in 8th grade.

It's not like the teachers like me, I bet there thinking:
"___ why are you so shy?"
"___ you should play sports! your body is a waste."
"___ your so 'Antisocial' why cant you be confident just like others!"
"___ your body type is for sporty girls/boys, your wasting your potential!"
"___ your so tall, It's a waste you don't do sports."
"___ didnt wave or greet at me, so disrespectful!" when I greet, you all ignore me

Everyone at school ignores me, and they tell me I'm rude? huh? your the one who's rude, you always ignore me.