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Category: Parties and Nightlife
A lot of my life I spend alone, I don't distance myself away from people on purpose per say. But it's obvious to me that whatever world I belong to is a very lonely one. As much as I look for friendship in people around me its like an eternal instinct to just be alone. Cant say I'm happy about naturally finding myself alone at most times of my life, but it just seems to be the only thing that is t... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I remember moving from this small duplex, mom finally got a new job and actually started making a livable amount of money. She never failed to make a place feel like home, still never got use to the feeling of finally feeling at ease in a duplex just to pack it all up and do it all over again. This had been around the 5th time we had moved again, all the other times where for varying different rea... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
A young boy visibly upset hiding it behind a masculine response he doesn't yet understand. The boys grandfather (papa) shaped out of stone from many years of pain sit next to each other on on a swing bench nestled between two great pine trees, no more then a few feet away from a house constructed before his own time. Papa: I saw you sitting out here all alone, you make your mama worried sometimes ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
1. It has been a desolate last few years, I can go to my Papa's house every now and then. I like to hangout with him semi often but its been a little while now, Its hard to go over there now. Ever since my nana passed away, the atmosphere isn't the same, the smell isn't the same. It just feels like I'm counting down till he eventually passes on as well. I haven't had a lot of positive role models ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I hardly feel human at times, I feel trapped in my skin. Not that id ever want to leave, I'm grateful for my gifted suit of suppression. It just gets lonely in here by myself, I do not fit in with others very well. I'm the oddball of oddballs, I feel beneath it all. The gum that is stepped in attracting those by being an inconvenience of sorts. I feel somehow like an outsider with the outsiders th... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
Tried catching a bus this morning, Arrived early to the time it said it would be leaving. Even thought this was the new delayed timing of 7:35 (originally 6:20) Waiting awhile confused because the app said the bus would already be here, but unsurprisingly it had left 30 minutes earlier, without saying anything and being way early on its schedule, naturally I wasn't very happy, let out a pained scr... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
I don't sleep a lot anymore, started crushing up Adderall and snorting it. My last boyfriend did the same thing, Guess it makes me feel close to him doing it now. But id be lying if I said I really cared anymore, If I don't get it into my system I will remain crippled in bed all day as useless as the garbage I leave around. Everyday goes by I could care less about the people around me, Its a stark... » Continue Reading
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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
For a little bit last summer around 2023 I had this little airport job, I have always had an interest in aircraft and I wanted to become an aircraft mechanic. I had the option to go to college and have it mostly paid off but sadly I never got the chance, I've had a lot of things like that go by me. Plenty of missed opportunities and such, I remember meeting my boss and he seemed like a pretty good... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I'm not proud of the route I'm taking in life, I wont be giving up my individuality but I will be giving my servitude to the war machine. I'm sure it could be worse but I just hope I make it out before my dad passes on, same with my grandpa. Both veterans of wars nobody won. Both pistons on a forever redlining engine. But I want them to see me in the uniform they fought with and for. There might b... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
I find it hard to keep going at times, I never stop going through my own life. Its certainly voluntary but sometimes I wish I could get off the train, feels like I missed my stop a long time ago and I'm just in a world that doesn't need me no more. This month is the anniversary to the day my best friend died. Hard to think ill never see the guy grow up, but he will be forever young. Maybe if I'm l... » Continue Reading
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Category: Friends
I dropped my brother off down the road a bit and headed to a gas station to fuel up because I was pretty low, could only put 5 in. I don't ever really have a lot of money on me but while I was fueling this little old lady walked up from behind my car and started talking to me. She had a very low voice which made a lot of what she said gibberish but i was more worried that this elderly woman was wa... » Continue Reading
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