Buzzing

I don't sleep a lot anymore, started crushing up Adderall and snorting it. My last boyfriend did the same thing, Guess it makes me feel close to him doing it now. But id be lying if I said I really cared anymore, If I don't get it into my system I will remain crippled in bed all day as useless as the garbage I leave around. Everyday goes by I could care less about the people around me, Its a stark contrast of what I use to think. But there are no saviors no righteous people anymore, Just the cowards and thief's they use to protect. But at the same time I doubt any good people ever existed, Just people pretending to care to get what they need and want. This will probably be the last blog from me because I cant keep doing this pointless writing anymore, just scribbles from a schizoid with nothing better to do but complain about things that don't matter.