chestnuts are ripening on the chestnut trees and will soon start falling, i thrifted a warm, oversized, comfy flannel shirt for this time of year and the past few days have been so cold that in the northern part of the country it even snowed, even though it's august (though by the end of the week it's supposed to get hot again) i hate the autumn-winter season: everything rots, there's no greenery,... » Continue Reading
people would just keep lying and lying just to maintain peace. but fuck, how long can that last? how long can you carry the weight of fear, the heavy burden of lying so often? as a friend, it hurts me too. it hurts that even though we always keep a chill atmosphere between us, i'm still constantly being lied to. from small silly things to matters involving trust. i get that it's a personality trai... » Continue Reading
this story came back to me this morning when i woke up earlier than usual and made myself a different coffee than the vanilla one i normally drink. i was debating how many teaspoons of coffee should i add i was 13 and still going to singing club. we were waiting for our turn to perform at a show we’d been preparing for months. behind the stage there was a whole setup to make coffee, so with some p... » Continue Reading
school assigned us a book for the summer - over 600 pages. i’ve been trying to motivate myself to read it for a week. guess how many pages i’ve read so far?? 8 pages!! who the hell assigns books like this for summer, when the whole point is for students to take a break from school? it’s a good book, i just don’t feel like reading it because i’m lazy, it’s hot, and i’ll probably be going away for l... » Continue Reading
i live in an urban area. i don’t like it - i prefer to wander off to places with fields, forests, meadows, etc. until recently, i didn’t even know i had such places within my reach. i finally discovered them when i was ready to open myself up to the world. i often visit them when i have no motivation to do anything else. i enjoy going on such walks, and they also make me feel less idle at the same... » Continue Reading
*he added that it was more his personal opinion, his own aesthetic preferences* also recently, when i went for a walk with my bestie and said that the street we were walking down was super aesthetic, she didn’t see the vision as for me - when i go for a walk, i usually come back with a lot of photos. too many. there are just too many interesting things in the world. in my opinion, those 'boring p... » Continue Reading
people from my middle school were always weird actually. now, as a graduate of that school, when i pass them on the street they either stare weirdly, or pretend they don’t see you, and almost no one says hi. i get that they didn’t like me because i had good grades unlike them, but whether you say hi to someone depends more on respect and upbringing than on "like/don’t like" the only people from th... » Continue Reading
or actually maybe it didn’t become boring, maybe it’s just me getting bored of it because my brain wants more and more stimulation from mindlessly watching tiktoks. lately whenever i’m at home the only thing i feel like doing is being on my phone. and i swear, no matter what social media i scroll, it’s all the same everywhere. so boring. i’m losing interest in everything and the only things i feel... » Continue Reading
first time in my life i flew on a plane, i went to sleepovers at my friends, i drank more alcohol than just a sip of my parents champagne on new year’s *didn’t get drunk!!*, i went on a trip with my bff, i discovered how much aimless walks boost my mood and along the way i found a bunch of cool new spots in my area, like open places with no buildings where i feel so alive, this is probably the bes... » Continue Reading
but fr, why do so many people have these super meaningful dreams that reflect their deepest current emotions, and i get crap like this that makes no sense? i mean, i guess it shows i'm stressed about ticket inspectors, but that’s nothing new so first, i met up with my online friend (who i've known for ages but never met irl, but in the dream we acted like it wa » Continue Reading
first you gotta cook them a bit, and then when you wanna eat them you kinda have to squeeze them out of this skin-like layer?? tbh it’s fun and actually tasty, it felt like eating sunflower seeds but instead of cracking a shell, you're peeling a legume i had this idea: since people often bring a bag of sunflower seeds to hangouts and just munch on them, why not show up to the park with a pot full ... » Continue Reading
i was at the lake with my parents and my bestie, it was amazing and honestly? i’d love to live in a village like the one where we stayed, if it weren’t for the fact that i enjoy the comfort of city life. the vibe there was so lovely, especially since we had such pretty weather most days what kind of experiences did i have? i went on a bunch of walks around the v » Continue Reading