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My parents are divorced, my mom's in the hospital and i've been without therapy for months. GOOD NEWS is that ive been doing better than I thought I would. The reality of my situation hasn't set in yet, because I would've thought I would have a melt down by now. I cant chat much, but just know life is sucky. Yet somehow im not feeling all that bad or depressed! so yay! i just want to go to therapy... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
I feel being a high schooler is different once you experience it. I feel too young to go to college. I still feel the wild, naïve spirit in me with my friends. I feel like a child somewhat. Maybe people around me have noticeable makeup and cooler rooms than in middle school. And they also spend too much time on tiktok and have a more distinct personal image too. But they are barely a decade and a ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
tw: vauge-ish + mild sh refrence (experience sorta in detail) this journal is for me. read if you want. i just want to log down how i feel to organize it. hopefully to look back and laugh at it. ---- i feel like ive lost my childhood innocence. I've been diagnosed with depression and I don't know how to feel about it. it feels a bit insulting, to be honest. I feel a bit more than depressed. It doe... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
heyup life is definitely not the greatest right now. It's really silly how contradictory I feel right now. Just so you know, for anyone struggling, it is extremely easy to fall back onto bad habits and bad self-talk. but now, I've reflected back onto everything and i'm ready to admit I haven't been being as kind as I should be to myself. these days i want to BE someone. A person with hobbies, purs... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
yooo!! id just like to share some things ive learned so far. on my journey to a better life :) forgiveness for your motivation (what i learned) the key to recovery is forgiveness. when i felt depressed, i was attaching my feelings to my character. like "im so lazy, why cant i get up?" or "why am i always choosing to be sad?" but depr » Continue Reading
Category: SpaceHey
(content warning. this is a seriously depressing subject. please dont read if you dont want to) this is sort of awkward. i dunno how to do virtual logs or whatever. im just going to pretend im talking to myself in this. so its gonna be super choppy and awkward and weird. so if your reading- im sorry lol. my brain is a mess. and im sorry every single post of my blog is depressing asf.. im not very ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Religion and Philosophy
I recently went back to church and im so glad i did. i go to a new one now, after a few years of not going at all due to a situation that honestly kinda traumatized me. but i feel like it was fate that the one time i come back to church against my will i actually ENJOY it! and i learned something from it. they were so kind and fun and they actually talked about something of substance that I could... » Continue Reading
Category: Music
this version of the song is literallly 20x better than the original im not even joking. I listened to it on repeat for a whole two days and it still slaps. » Continue Reading
Category: Pets and Animals
I'm finally 16 !! WOAH To celebrate I wanna record down all the little things my dog does that make me love him a lot. Another age of loving my dog and im so greatful to have him :( so here it is.... When it's wet outside and I go to dry him off he lifts his paws so that I can wipe them. He also lifts his paws when the leash accidently goes under him cause he walks too fast. He rubs himself into a... » Continue Reading
Category: Music
Here is my list of songs that I can think of rn :> "why can't you be a dick? why must you be so nice? it's hard for me to move on when I don't really hate you" - perfume "and i wont see you again. your not a person your my friend" - blondie "you look at me the same, but I can't reciprocate. fragrant air. and then i see your face." - your face "a new kind of l » Continue Reading
Category: Music
idk if its because i feel sorta depressed but im currently loosing my mind listening to these songs because of how good they are. maybe its something that comes with these waves of emotions but these songs hit different.. its the type of song that are "sad happy" atleast in my opinion. Something that could describe the nice little sunshiney parts of life that make you wanna cry because of how bea... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
i hate medical stuff and i mostly hate my science courses but i have learned some interesting stuff while i have been here!! here are some cool facts I have mentally stored that i think are sorta cool coming from someone who dislikes anything medical! (also some of these are sorta not facts and just blabbering and some of it may not be exactly explained well bc.. im gonna be honest, im half asleep... » Continue Reading
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