yupp! i really don't want to be writing a blog post rn i'll be real with you. but i'll keep it simple: the past couple months have been a struggle, mentally. high highs and low lows. i have no more weed left aside from edibles that turn me inside out and are violently expensive sooo. I can't really bum around with drugs anymore, which is really really good! with that and spring having sprung, i fe... » Continue Reading
originally titled: this was gonna be a bulletin post but it got too long edit: what happened to the pictures why do thye look like that i hate this website just right click/long tap and open it in another tab jesus christ » Continue Reading
once again do the winds of change call to me in whispers... just barely started to speak. Lovely! that's good. i've been really struggling with weed. i've felt really empty and aimless and it's been the only thing to make me see the world in depth and color. which is bad! but i've finally reached a breaking point where my mind and body both agree that it's time for a break. my body isn't a temple... » Continue Reading
aghhh... new years huh. mm. gotta love it... Another year of this beautiful life. (Turning around my sour attitude is another part of this new year. Resolution. etc.) i am doing okay. my mental state has middled out i think. not too good not too bad. struggling quite a bit with self control and lethargy. just kinda depressed and wanna sleep. but i'm working on it. i hate to brave the cold glum mo... » Continue Reading
Ohhhhh so thats why i have been turning into a harpy. I see. jokes aside i've actually been managing my emotions... somewhat! i've started identifying little aggregators in my life and, instead of letting it fester like i always have, am actively working on fixing them or cbt'ing my way past it. wow! i've been perusing the mary jane mindscape the past week again and doing some deep thinking in bet... » Continue Reading
well, hello. it's been 2 months...? 1 month? i don't know. i'm having a bit of a slump. my boyfriend visited me for a whole month which was amazing! we basically were just living together, independent and free, and living in a little wonderland of not having jobs and just doing whatever the hell we want. now that fantasy life is over because he's back home and, yknow, we don't have jobs. so we hav... » Continue Reading
i've been doing really good these past few days!!!! i feel changed. i've been going out, taking walks, doing things i've been meaning to do for months... i even have a little tan from being outside! Wow!! i hope i don't sound cliche talking about this but yknow. i just feel nice. on the tolerance break front, i'm bad at that. but i've slowed down my intake atleast. i feel very human. i can be in... » Continue Reading
ohhhhhhhh... you have to put in lots of work to reap any sort of reward. so, if you read my bulletin, you saw that i finally got my license! yes i am 24. but y'know, it's better late than never, i would rather have gotten it now than waiting and waiting out of fear of failure or injury. and this feeling's got me really thoughtful ever since. i've had it drilled into my psyche that everyone in the ... » Continue Reading
she is currently at the moment pouncing on my blanket torturing a moth that flew in. her soul is that of a hunter... anyway, hi, hello. i'm planning on taking my license test this week! no appointment, gonna do a walk-in super early even though that sounds like shit. because if i fail i'm just gonna show up every day until i get it. i think part of why i've been struggling is the lack of support f... » Continue Reading
ive been struggling the pass few days so i deserve it smh... anyway im enjoying some time outside even though its boiling hot and mosquito rich. I'm going to use voice to text cuz I'm too high to type struggling also in the sense that now that I'm actively trying to get better.... I'm starting to feel that uphill climb you know. that one part of me that's super insincere and doesn't see the worth ... » Continue Reading
that title is like a biohazard to anyone who isn't a furry on here. anyway HI! it's been a minute. i've been wavering a bit mentally and am trying to pull myself out of a mental fog i've put myself in. i got so motivated to look for jobs and... well... i looked at.. one. that's it really, though. not to mention i can't get anyone to consistently help me out with driving. i feel really stuck and it... » Continue Reading
i need a air pump because my lungs will turn outside if i keep trying to inflate my sea lion pooltoy with my stupid mouth. i was gonna get him out again tonight but yesterday it took me like 45 minutes to get him all blown up. and it's already so late that i'd have to deflate him after an hour. Not Worth It. it sucks simply. because it turns out cuddling and snuggling something makes you happy. an... » Continue Reading