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Category: Friends
no matter what, the loneliness persists at times. but then im also increasingly getting tired of people... and i feel like i dont care as much about closeness anymore how do i put it... it still matters to me. i just worry less about it now. the quality of my relationships suffers but ive been learning to just accept things and not care as much if all/most my relationships are or will be Not That ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
something i realize again and again is that. i dont allow myself to, idk, "play"? like just do things for fun and waste » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
sometimes i miss spending more time on social media and meeting new ppl and such or i feel lonely or bored/depressed and want to scroll but atp i dont have the patience/tolerance for it. i go on social media and receive lots of mental damage from just being there. even from pretty benign things. (tumblr has this effect on me... pinterest is more chill bc i just browse art or something funnily enou... » Continue Reading
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Category: Life
really feeling like i have no one to talk to about some of my problems... only the therapist. sometimes i try to open up but its like... feels useless. i feel bad not opening up and i feel bad when i do open up... for different reasons. im very tired of living like this and being like this. i try and try to work through things, i make all kinds of effort and it just. feels so pointless sometimes. ... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
...i still get drawn to social media and to the idea of posting random things on social media but... every time it feels disappointing. its not like social media has never been empty, but for me it especially feels this way for the last... idk how long. i guess its the habit that pulls me back, probably. but you do, sometimes, make new friends on social media after all! ive met some ppl who mean o... » Continue Reading
Category: Art and Photography
been drawing like everyday recently. drawing everyday hasnt been a thing for me at least since 2020 (bc i hit burnout back then real hard). unless you count [a thing] in which i was drawing constantly. but for myself? yeah drawing This Often was probably last in 2020 …so its pretty cool im doing it so often again! …did it take » Continue Reading
Category: Jobs, Work, Careers
i was talking to my mother one the phone and i carefully mentioned some things regarding job search. ive mentione » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
you do have other people in your life, a partner, friends (even if only online), family, acquaintances, support groups. you have people to talk to at least sometimes and lean on and ask for help or advice at least once in a while. you don't need to fear right now. keep trying to make new connections, etc., but you don't need to fear or catastrophize about the future. you'll figure it out. it will ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
don't be hard on yourself if you need rest after doing a bunch of things - you use up a lot of spoons if you do many things and sometimes you borrow from the next day(s). so if you do a lot one day, but barely anything the next day - its okay. so it could look like: one active day, one rest day; one social day, one withdrawn day; one creative day, one "passive" day, etc. and don't be hard on yours... » Continue Reading
Category: Friends
it took years to improve my social skills and lower my social anxiety enough and learn to just exist around other people. i believe i can mask my differences and struggles well enough right now. or at the very least, i may still come off as awkward or weird but i dont think its so bad. used to be worse anyway. and so i thought this was a good thing! i learned how to socialize. surely this will hel... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i feel sad. i long for closeness and simply socialization but too often i just feel plain worse afterwards. i almost regret it sometimes because of just how worse i feel. and thats just frustrating… i know theres a bunch of things that goes into this feeling. i dont feel like dissecting that. but god, i long for connection. and yet, its like it hurts me every time. i try to connect and it causes s... » Continue Reading
Category: Blogging
diaries and whatnot are a big special interest for me thats been going on already for... close to two decades. thats a long time for sure. and all the more reason why its something that i keep talking about so often even in diary entries themselves. and something i simply think about a lot. rotating the mere bare concept of diaries/journals in my head like in a microwave. ...now, one unfortunate a... » Continue Reading
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