#13 reminder to my fear of loneliness

you do have other people in your life, a partner, friends (even if only online), family, acquaintances, support groups. you have people to talk to at least sometimes and lean on and ask for help or advice at least once in a while. you don't need to fear right now. keep trying to make new connections, etc., but you don't need to fear or catastrophize about the future. you'll figure it out. it will work out, one way or another. "life finds a way", etc.

no need to overthink, overanalyze, dissect your relationships. don't worry about best friends, close friends, good friends, etc., or the essence of a connection (aka worrying about whether it's a friendship of good or utility or pleasure, etc.). it's fine to want something specific, to want certain qualities in your relationships, and to have needs you want to be met and it's fine to feel sad about it and it's important to validate it and to know what you want but no need to overthink. its better to just try to enjoy the connections for the way they are.

(writing this almost makes me feel sick with the emotional pain i feel
i feel a Need to connect and not just on surface level but on a deeper level too
i feel a Need to be able to share my interests and my feelings and my struggles
i dont do that much of either
and i feel a Need for other people to do the same for me
but im trying to remind myself that i still can be grateful for some things and people in my life)