i remember when the trailers for TUA season two dropped and i remember going to the comments section seeing how excited everyone was, but the only thing i could think was "why am i not excited for this? this doesn't look good to me." OH BOY WAS I RIGHT. I WAS SO FUCKING RIGHT. i actually had no idea the 4th season was even out. i actually kinda forgot about it until i was on netflix look for a mo... » Continue Reading
I just had a dream I was getting fucked in a bath tub by a tall burly cute white boy with short brown hair. there was some other stuff that happened in the dream but this is the only part that mattered. it was kinda weird tho yk how dreams are. the me he was fucking looked like freshman year of high school me (I used to be extremely different then, like I was super girly and had straight hair and ... » Continue Reading
very dramatic title I know. but I dont even think it's an overstatement. okay maybe a little. but for real, it's pretty bad. over the years my relationship with youtube has gotten worse and worse and WORSE. at first, yk like any other kid I just used it occasionally to watch funny videos or cool animations. I'm honestly not really sure when the switch flipped or when it started becoming toxic. I'm... » Continue Reading
4 hours. I only got 4 hours of sleep. this really is hell. I cant stand not being to sleep at night, I really cant. I don't know what to do. my eyes are literally burning from the lack of sleep. they feel so heavy all the time. I'm exhausted. I wish I could od on some melatonin and just sleep for days. I feel like a lot of my issues would be solved or at least easier to solve if I could just fall ... » Continue Reading
is this a vent or is it a "mental health analysis"? i'm not sure. i'll figure out as i go on i guess. so what's this all about this time? what super despresing thoughts am i about to spill onto this blog once more. well not many. in fact i'm only really writing this because i can't sleep. well something like that. i feel like (more like i know because this almost an every night occurrence) that i... » Continue Reading
The Romantics by Leah Konen. ookay so i actually dont remember when exactly i got this book but it wasn't too long ago. but i know for a fact that it's sat untouched on my bookshelf for well over a year i believe. and since im trying to get back into reading, this was the perfect next book to read. 90% of the books on my shelf i've read in their entirety but also they are books i got when i was a ... » Continue Reading
this is very different from the usual. like very different. so we all know im like really sad and stuff right? right. so like i was so fucking sad the other day and was like i gotta do something i wanna die so i picked up a book i never finished off my dusty bookshelf and decided to read it. it took two days to finish. it only had 322 pages i couldve finished it in one night if i really wanted to ... » Continue Reading
basically, I've started journaling lol. well kiiinda journaling. i dont wanna get into because im fucking lazy, but ive basically decided hey, maybe venting on the internet to a bunch of strangers isnt a good idea. i still wanna like make normal rant-y blogs where i just rant about topics and things that piss me off (or interest me...but usually piss me off because im always pissed off lol), but i... » Continue Reading