lazy book review of a random book i found at a goodwill in georgia

The Romantics by Leah Konen.

ookay so i actually dont remember when exactly i got this book but it wasn't too long ago. but i know for a fact that it's sat untouched on my bookshelf for well over a year i believe. and since im trying to get back into reading, this was the perfect next book to read. 90% of the books on my shelf i've read in their entirety but also they are books i got when i was a literal fucking child LOL. so a lot of them are veeeeeeeerry childish kid books that i dont wanna reread but ive got some interesting things. like this random goodwill find.

i'm writing this one directly after finishing it but unlike the last one (because i lowkey highkey don't feel like typing but i still wanna talk about it) i'm not gonna recap the ENTIRE story i'm just gonna like mainly talk about my feelings and thoughts and whatever.

talk about a fucking ROLLER COASTER of emotions this book took me on. 

so let me make this as brief as possible. Gael, a hopeless romantic basically who is going through the dread that is his parents recently divorcing and in the midst of this he finds his girlfriend, a girl that he truly thought he was in love with and because of that may have said "i love you" a little too fast to her, was CHEATING ON HIM WITH HIS BEST FRIEND MASON. this causes him kinda literally SPIRAL for like a large majority of the book. he is extremely hurt but the boys do slowly throughout the course of the book start to become friends again and Mason starts to learn a little about love himself with this newfound relationship he's found himself in (even though personally i think he's a piece of shit but whatever). at one point Gael starts to believe he finds love or something again with another girl named Cara but in reality she was just a distraction and he knew deep down that he didn't want her but kept pushing those thoughts away to try and make things work. spoiler alert; they don't work out. she was also rushing things and didn't really want him,,,she just didnnt wanna be alone. meanwhile there's SAMMY who's his little sister's baby sister who at first he finds "annoying" but as he truly got to know her/became more friendly with her he realizes that they have so much in common but he fights with the fact that he may have feelings for her because of Cara until he FINALLY comes to the conclusion that Cara isn't who he wants and its Sammy. oh yeah and the entire this is like told by love and love like pulls a bunch of strings to try and make things work out for Gael. sometimes it works. sometimes it goes terribly wrong.

i reeeally could've gone into way more detail but like dude it's two in the fawkin mornin like seriously what the hell am i doin right now? and besides i am mainly wantin to talk about my feels of the whole thing. plus mmmmman idek how to get into this shit that happens. it was a very interesting read.

i was sad.

i was pissed.

i was FUCKING FURIOUS AND THREATEN TO THROW THE BOOK AWAY.

i was pleased.

i was like awwww.

there were many twists and turns with my feelings. and that's what a good book does. it pisses you the fuck off a bunch because it refuses to let that happy ending come easily. in my last book review (which was literally my last blog post lol) i mentioned how i liked romance where shit goes wrong and MAN DID SHIT GO WRONG LIKE A BAJILLION TIMES IN THIS BOOK. like cara coming into his life. WRONG. I HATED HER. SHE WAS WRONG FOR HIM AND HE KNEW IT BUT HE KEPT FUCKING GOING TO HER. but i had to keep reminding myself; he's just a dumb, sad, kid. he lost what once was the perfect happy family. he lost his girlfriend. he lost his best friend until they kinda sorta rekindled their friendship. of course he was gonna make stupid decisions and try to distract himself from his problems. poor kid felt like his life was falling apart. i really felt fuckin bad for him like i felt SAD FOR THIS FUCKIN FICTIONAL BOOK CHARACTER. he did a lot of dumb shit like constantly fighting with his parents and struggling to forgive them for the divorce but of COURSE he would. that shit sucks. everything that was happening to him sucked. he made me so angry with how he treated his parents but 

i've thought similar things.

i've never REEEEEEEEEEEEALLY truly made sense of my parents' divorce yk? parents they like to hide shit from you. everything seems fine until one day something really fucking weird happens and then next thing you know your dad is in charlotte and you are in georgia.

i've thought several times to myself; this is all her fault. and i've thought many horrible things and i still think really bad things because i'm still angry about it sometimes.

Gael he blamed his father because he assumed he cheated on his mother (lol) and treated his father horribly until his father told him that it was actually his mother who decided to end the relationship, causing Gael to briefly turn on his mother, even saying he hated her. but he was just processing complex emotions and doing it in a really shit way.

but for me, i didn't even get a fucking explanation. shit just got weird. shit just fucking happened and everything was different. everything was wrong and it was fucking weird.

i never thought that some random silly book would have me analyzing the way my parents divorce made me feel. because well i never really sat down and thought about it. or maybe i have but never really comprehended it. i just know how angry it made me. and i guess i'm realizing now that i'm still angry. but whatever. theres nothing i can do. its not like the life i lived before was all fine and dandy anyways. it wasn't like bad lol. it was just idk. it was normal but also not. it was normal sometimes. kinda? eh?? take that as you will, i won't elaborate any further.

hm. i'll stop here. 

book was p good. ending was wacky tacky but it was ridiculous enough for me to like it/find it endearing. imma give another 7 outta 10 again. i still dont think im ready for an 8, but 6 is too low. 6/10 has never been a good score. it's like the worst score. 

it's like of "not good enough" was a rating. it would be "6/10".

goodnight.