I had already realized that i am a weird person and i owuld never fit into the social standards of what society actually deems as normal, and i had decided that i was so cool with that i actually enjoyed it. I had tried to interfere and get under to try and be a part of 'society' (this sounds so creepy like im saying im a neet or somehting but its kinda not a lie) and then i just reisgned and acce... » Continue Reading
Unresolved trauma really leans to make bad choices, along with bad choices the regret and the paranoic feelings of it. Perpetually in fighting mode, trying to keep myself safe in a useless way that I know will be useless when I get manipulated the right way. Who doesn't feel their heart triggering in nervousness and bad thoughts when the triggers of pain start up?? I am conscious of my situation a... » Continue Reading
my mind is fuzzy to truly remember but i havent logged in since about the start of april or something. then, some days went and now my mind finally filled up with the pushing feeling to catch up, it's not like i just started to fall out of interest already from this tremendously fleeting website that is mainly just a nostalgia grab where people come for like at 2 months or less give or take and th... » Continue Reading
also how do you truly handle with that... fucking you over. I don't get what's truly clear of that and me but i don't understand how to handle it because that did it. deciding to pull that trigger and now everything is broken but i don't understand in which way no easy healing close to that in a situation like this and watching while you drown from a cage at the shine of that doesn't seem any fun... » Continue Reading
So, recently I started to touch my 3ds once again... and by recently I mean yesterday or so. Either way it's super fun because just the thought of playing feels nice and cozy for some reason. I don't really use my 3ds that often but I think I am gonna play more because I actually decided to pick it up and play and it was so fun I spent so much hours on animal crossing and playing tomodachi life a ... » Continue Reading
so like......... once i do it right cuz okay internet i'm gonna confess and i'm gonna confess it publicly like that makes it any better so it's gonna b super awkward and weird but yea i'm super depressed!! and it's hard to get through even if i do productive things or don't procrastinate, because i realized that i don't even feel happy when i'm actually living. I feel frustrated and horrible recen... » Continue Reading
i'm crashing fucking out like crashing out badly kinda but not really i'm being exaggerated but i was starting to have werid feelings even if i'm calming down but i don't really care but I CAN'T STOP... i can't stop feeling like once again i've been used in some sort of way, probably a ghost worry but i'm being so ridiculous now cuz my mind decided to play imposter once more and make me worry. It'... » Continue Reading
Hiii ppl from space hey!! :33 today I'm getting back on track onto the usual femme self... I don't have much to say about this but I really liked this outfit, I went for a little walk to the park and took a lot of silly pictures too!! yay!!~ ⋆˙⟡♡ Lots of silly pictures at the » Continue Reading
Hii space hey people! Today I'm gonna try to be a cute boy ish boy. Sort of... one of the good things to having a big brother is that i can secretly go to his wardrobe! I felt a bit nervous but it was really fun. Sooooooo this is our first picture!! first of all, it felt so odd to try and start posing in 'boyish' ways or masculine... but it's not like it was bad!! lol, it felt so fun doing » Continue Reading
Sometimes, I wish that I was a man. (I don't mean this in the I feel like I'm in the wrong body or something) I'm going to make a disclaimer that I'll talk about gender, because as a whole the concept of g » Continue Reading
Well..... Hii SpaceHey people!!.... So, at the time I'm writing this, it's 6:36 p.m, which means that, oficially, it's my birthday...... like I already have been born. That makes no sense at all, sorry!! I wa » Continue Reading
Hiiiiiiii SpaceHey people!!!!! In this very special entry of today I want to show you guys my outfit... and to wish you all a happy new year! I really love this skirt, it's my favorite and I feel like this is the perfect time to wear it out, right now it's 11:18 p.m. ... This year is about to end pretty closely! So I wanna say my feelings. » Continue Reading