I want to say the last couple of weeks. I've been really reassessing things just in general. Thinking to myself, I think I took on a lot more than I could handle. But I guess you could say I'm up for the challenge even though it's irritating me..at times. I thought real, long and hard about some upcoming events in my life. I am unsure of what I am doing at the moment. Building a home. Trying to ... » Continue Reading
I am filing this under Dreams and the Supernatural which it is the season. Today isn't going so bad. It's sad to say but I had worst but what only makes you stronger is how I look at it now a days. I am really looking back and reflecting on just starting over and really just having a lot on my plate. But for some odd reason I am up for the challenge. I just keep telling myself "THINK OF THE ALTERN... » Continue Reading
I will get right to the point!!!!! I cannot believe I got triggered by something in a movie (doc) that just made me just get triggered that never happens. So the poetic me came to write about it. I just seen this woman with her kid BRAGGING about having a kid (well she wasn't I'm just a crusty bi*ch with no white baby LMFAO!!!!) but fr she was sitting there talking to her sis going "Oh yo this is ... » Continue Reading
I am here thinking of ways to film some of these new scenes for the movie DARLENE its a killer doll type. Shes cute shes cuddly but she looks horrifying but shes snappy but shes sweet. ;) I am having the experience of playing twin brothers. SO MORE ME!!! LOL! But I am glad this one I get a lot more camera time but its a really, really slow process for now. I did not film much just a scene walking ... » Continue Reading
Just an assumption of mine. Sometimes I will be thinking to myself should I share that joke is it pushing it? But really..I thought that was the whole point of comedy..push the edge go the extra mile with the joke why not? I suppose sometimes I think to myself (just randomly really) about how some people your just afraid to tell jokes around them like tip toe. I mean if you cant handle a good d jo... » Continue Reading
I am pretty much putting all my energy and my love into myself now a days. A slow work in progress. But, there was how do I say without saying her name just really out of respect for her. She was in the adult world of films at one point. Probably the biggest. I cried looking at her photos last night. I don't know why. I honest thought in my heart she would have been someone I could help and reall... » Continue Reading
I have been in this beautiful city more than a few times. And now that I am here I am glad certain parts the vibe it gives has not change. Maybe buildings or even new bizz be there..but! Still got that old school flavor. Everyone is in the rush to get their coffee in the morning. One thing I love about it in the morning, when you walk outside, the people, the streets are all LOUDLY saying WAKE THE... » Continue Reading
I had some time alone really just to think of things and as much as I wanted to have a son I must have talked about it oh idk how many times by now. But I think for now. As of now, I don't think that's something I want at this moment. I am drained from the subject even thinking of it. I guess we all get to a point in life where we think about having kids. But the way my life is going I have so muc... » Continue Reading
Pretty much I am feeling like me again the old me..well, slowly really I am seeing quite the process of new goals I am trying to more than damn aim for. For sure, I am 100% overwhelmed to say the least. I am starting to think one thing at a time but sometimes that is just not possible and it's one of those either now or never lets just get the f**k going with life and this time just have fun with... » Continue Reading