Story

You know a lot of my friends who I counted on are here but not really. Drugs took over their lives sadly. Makes me wish them a better future then what they are going through. 

Honest, sometimes it is very hard to think of some of the people I once knew be so full of life and have a life. Being their outgoing selves. The good ol days. Now a lot of them turned to drugs. 

It is a very long story, but needless to say its lonely. It always surprises me who turns to drugs because I watched some pretty good people go down because of it. 

F YES!! It gets lonely without them my old support system but I can't save them either they gotta do that to some degree. I can help sure. 

Long story short. Damn I miss them! They would come over or I would visit them. Some of my friends back then had apartments and legit gave all that up and then some for drugs. 

I hope they pull through and fight it and win it. Their drug battle. Get out of it and say hey I did it but I changed. I dream that for them obviously. I want them to be the old them! I know they can but sometimes when you watch certain friends go at it for idk how many years now you wonder. I will never lose hope no but I wonder yes. 

I always give this energy out there for them "you can change" they can turn it around. I just wonder when sometimes. Some days I wonder will it ever happen. I always will root them on to get out of it fck yes!! They are good people and deserve to get out of it because I know how much trouble and sadness it causes. 

Makes me mad too like I lost out on them. On boring days its like who .... to ... turn ... too? 

I am surprised at how many went this route. I will always hope they get out of it and be stronger than ever before not ever going back. My hopes. My dreams for them. 

Sucks...watching people slowly go to a different scary direction. I WILL ALWAYS want the best for them and want them to change and feel like themselves again. 

Just lonely is all when they aren't around I guess what I am getting at. 

Anyways....rant of the day I suppose. 

Stay well and awesome people. 

Much love, A