Miss K and Other Rants

So in my last one I was talking about Miss K, I will give her that nickname. The most wildest way we met is one of a kind. 

Miss K is someone I had on one of my socials and for the longest time she was always chatting with me from another town way far away. Hours and hours away from me. Never thinking we would meet. 

Now and then over I want to say a year she would message me and we would talk about random stuff like writing, what we are doing that day. Stuff like that. 

So I moved into town in 2017 here. A bigger smaller town if that makes any sense. A city but not really. 

(Maybe another time I will explain the interesting turn of events that lead me and my family to move in 2017 but I will finish this lol) 

So Miss K I always admired. Thought she was beautiful. Always had this tension even speaking online, thinking what a riot it would be if we actually met in real life. 

So I move in to this town in 2017, I told her I had move and she had asked where. She said "What? How is this possible?" 

We talked online for quite sometime not never expecting to ever met. She told me she had moved to the same town I was in just about 2 months before me. 

I thought how ironic we talked online for steady on and off for a little over year I wanna say. 

So both of us knowing we are in the same town, we figured we should finally meet up and hangout. And we did ;] 

At first it was wild, fun and very interesting. I got to know her finally in person. The person that would always leave me nice messages to wake up. After awhile of having the time to hangout in person for awhile. The first night was great. She said "Come back in the AM and we will go out for coffee". I said sure. What was even more ironic is when I moved to this. She was about a 3 minutes away. I figured how even MORE ironic to say the least. 

So the next morning, feeling great. I had this energy where I was excited because well everything was new-ish at the time (even though I seen this city on and off before) it was the first time being here in a very long. I lived in the country prior so it had a LITTLE more going on. Not by much. (Do not worry I will share that story maybe next time!) 

As I walk over to her place in the morning. Not knowing much about her personally as we are just meeting each other last night. I come over just about to walk to her place and I remember I stopped in my tracks and froze. Knowing nothing about her remember. She was kissing another guy on the bottom of the stairs. They were both sitting at the bottom. And I almost felt like I was walking into some sort of trap. As I froze and seen them quickly because they were in the moment not seeing me or paying attention. I figured I better turn the other way quick. Because he is going to be wondering who the f I'm I? And I wouldn't blame him. 


Many can say what they want or have their opinions like maybe you should not have went with a girl who had a boyfriend. Again, only know her for about one day personally. Sure we talked online previously for awhile on and off but she never ONCE mentioned she had a boyfriend. Certainly did not mention it the first day of meeting me and introducing herself. Which I would like think would be a big clue about yourself your leaving out on purpose. 


So I walked back home. Made sure I sat down and texted her and asked "So I came by and seen you were kissing someone. How come you never told me about that". 

Honestly - I don't care she is free to chill with who she wants. We are not official by any means considering we have not known each other personally that long. But it would have been nice for the heads up and if I did that to her she probably would never forgive me. 

I only forgave her because well....your 3 minutes away. LOL ;) ;) 

So I looked past it and said "No biggie just would have been nice to know". 

Her being caught in her own game. Quite literally. She eventually owned up to her boyfriend at the time what happened (was not just me so I am not flattered LOL!) 

And they broke off and still remained friends. 


She was always someone I liked and dare I say relied on for strength and good conversation and good times all mixed in one. 


Sadly, things would take a very worst turn for Miss K. She was telling me the reasons she was basically fooling around not being loyal because she mentioned something like "hes doing the same so why not play him too" then went on to say "There is too many things going on between us it was best me and him broke up" And from the sounds of it. I'd say so. Unfair to both parties. 

After a couple months of her breaking up with him, they still remained in touch. Maybe too much, again we are not official. Just more of a friend with fun times if you get me. 

And sure enough something snapped with her. Don't know what. Both something clicked. Remaining friends with her ex my own personal opinion (exes are exes for a reason right?) her downfall if you ask me he was hard into being an addict. 

She seen me at this local spot a lot of people come to. I told her meet me down there if you wanna say hi. She asked me the night before. 

"Do you know where I can get those patches?" 

"I said I dont know. This is place is shady. Look around". 

"Lets hangout and talk about it when I see you" 

I agreed. I do not know why? I think out of complete boredom and figured lets keep the good times goinnn between me and Miss K ;) 

haha! 

The next day she met me like clock work. 

I said "I cant help with that are you crazy?" 

She said "Im sorry" really meant it too. I know it because you could tell I got offended. 


She was someone I looked up too. She always had some sort of job no matter what she was going through. And it made me think "damn some of my problems are minor to hers and shes still rocking it". Gave me courage to go think to myself "IF she can do it with all that going on I can certainly pick stuff up for myself and basically get on top like her" 


She always had a job and if she lost one or didn't like it she would move on and actually get one!! 

I was always pumped to hear what she had going on. Made me think well maybe I could have a life sometime with her. 

Then it gets even worst with Miss K. Let's say after months and months of being a good girl. 

She was not a good girl. 

Dial a girl if you feel me now. 

On the streets doing who knows what with hardly notta on made me really feel just depressed inside. Here is someone I knew full of life being lost to addiction. I always hoped she would turn it around. Every time she seen me over the years she would always stop me and say something usually like "i love you your such a supermodel" saying things so darn sweet everytime and meaning it. Always uplifting me no matter her condition. 


The one day I seen her downtown, looking just I don't know how to put it. Not the same. Sure we were never official but I liked her and respected her enough to not want to see her go down this road. 

The last time I saw her was downtown and we spoke a little bit. Maybe 5 minute's before she ventured off with dare I say a unsavory looking friend. That was the last time we spoke or even seen each other. Remembering from the first day to when I met her looking back to the last day I met. Quite a bit of a change. 

Every now and then I wondered what happened to her over the years. 

I looked her up. She is another person when they have major addictions they dont have cell phones because they sell them or cant afford to put money on it. 

So it leaves people like me wondering how do I contact you just to simply say hi or see how they been doing? Or get some sort of information on how they been. 

Miss K is in another town next to me. It is even bigger city. And I feared well if your in a bigger city that is way bigger than this once. I can only imagine what she is like/doing now. Would I want to know? 

And from the minor updates she does give on socials. It is bare bones to say the least. So, I just assume shes never on. 

Tried saying hi, usually she would say hi. At least that. 

So far that was awhile ago. And nothing back. I wonder if she is even ok? 

I feel bad we lost out of touch, but you cannot blame me for not wanting to hangout with unhealthy people that are going through way huge problems that I just dont want to be around. Not my energy. 

I perhaps just get in these situations again I think out of pure boredom. Having nothing too do and too much time. 

Last I heard of Miss K she was staying with a very older man that was trying to "help her get her stuff together". His words too. Aka lets be in a wild circus together. He is no angel either. 

Then she moved to that other big city and I fear the worst for her. I hope one day she too can turn it around. She has before and this time I hope she does it for good. 


It was Miss K's party hour when we hung out. Let's have a couple drinks and lets have Mary Jane over too! 

Now her party is different. Way different. 

I miss her at times I do. We would always have the greatest times together. She would always want to just find different movies to watch. Go on random adventures. She had so many things going for her. I do believe she was also working on going back to school. 

I really wish in my heart she would go back to the old her. I want to say "cant you just get your subway job back and lets start fresh?" LOL 
Punt somewhere I am sure. 

Regardless, she has not gotten better. I know in my heart. Just from what I hear and see. 

Another one bites the dust aka another friend I can no longer hangout with. I gave her Miss K as a nickname and everything really is just from my personal view. Giving details about really well....just my personal opinion. 

One day I hope Miss K see's she can get out of it before. My dream in my head for her she gets her subway job back she lost and thrive again. And have good times with me ;] like we used too hey hyd, lol. 

Depressing as f to look back and go your another one I cant call. :( 

Love, 
A