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today is gonna be kind of a slow day i think -- i feel a bit better than i did yesterday but, that stuff still comes in waves. i'm gonna try to be kind to myself. anyway, depressive episode update, i've been watching jacksepticeye play subnautica -- the full release; i watched his old series when it was early access as it was coming out in like, bits and pieces, but i never actually fully watched... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
fatigue and executive dysfunction -- as someone who deals with both -- feel almost the same to me, and it's weird to think about. it's weird to talk about; everyone always thinks you're faking it, always thinks you're lazy or over-exaggerating and meanwhile, you can't even get out of bed. you can't just will yourself to do "the thing," your brain/body doesn't work like that. you're not "normal." "... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
‘you were pretty for a boy.’ who am i fooling? who am i trying to fool? why does my skin itch every time i think about it, every time i think about you ? it used to come so easy, be so simple, and now it falls through my finger-tips with every shaken exhale. i don't know what i'm doing wrong. can you kill a facade? can you pierce its chest and watch it bleed out on the floor -- satisfied, prideful... » Continue Reading
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i'm getting my first vaccination dose today -- i shouldn't be as worried as i am, because logically i basically already know how it's gonna effect (affect?) me, but i'm still worried. it's my anxiety getting the best of me -- saying like, 'oh it's gonna be awful and terrible,' when logistically i'll probably just like, be really tired for a couple of days. honestly i think it's just all the fear-... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
it's a practiced act, and i'm skilled at silence, the best of my peers when it comes to you. my fear doesn't show, my heart doesn't pound, i simply sit. and i'll tremble when i get home, when the walls are a safer color. a cooler grey. suburbia doesn't exist; it's a stage show. don't let yourself get tricked by the wires and flashing lights. » Continue Reading
Category: Art and Photography
ive been doing more collage art type stuff lately -- specifically, theres just something oddly calming about cutting things out and putting them in place, be it digitally or otherwise. here's one i just did today: i posted it on my instagra » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
hi hi hi my brain has energy but my body has like, none. i got a fuck ton done today, and i can definitely feel it. i got some stuff listed on my depop , and i got my lizard moved into the spare room, so he doesn't get cold in mine -- i've been sleeping in wool gloves , its way too cold for a little scaly boy in this room. also, i worked on my shop » Continue Reading
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Category: Web, HTML, Tech
literally, i didnt even realize it's like 6:30 in the morning almost, i've spent all night working on my layout and i'm still not done -- need to change the colors out so they match the background and some of the gifs/stamps better. i also feel like my code is complete chicken scratch b/c i've literally never done this before but like, so far so good! lawl i think what's mostly been helping me is... » Continue Reading
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Category: Movies, TV, Celebrities
i'm on blood mary right now (s1, e5) and can i just say, the netflix version is so jarring?? they had to swap out all the songs in season one when they put it onto netflix because of licensing issues, and it's so jarring to expect a certain song from a certain scene and then it's just not there. like, it's just some stock song or some random indie rock song that doesn't fit the vibe of the show at... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
i don't know if i'll keep this up but i just have a lot of thoughts i need to pour out of my head and i can type faster than i can hand-write. bare with me, i'm half asleep. i hate how the cycles of history manage to repeat themselves, over and over and over again; i know, it's the basis and point of the thing. people as a whole don't live long enough to learn from our over-arching history unless ... » Continue Reading
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it doesn't feel as special as it did when i was a kid (or, a littler one) but, i guess nothing really does. being a little kid just has this all around magic to it, doesn't it? this special quality that gets drained out of your bloodstream with age. anyway, i made the poor choice of comparing myself at the start of last year to me now -- i look like a ghost. i only recognize that face when it's st... » Continue Reading
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i bought some vintage sweaters and some old fob merch off depop recently (i guess the merch also counts as vintage now, but that makes me feel absolutely ancient) -- one of the sweaters just came, seems like it'll be super comfy. it's cream colored w/ brown stripes. i'm washing before i wear, so no pics. i'm fucking exhausted. i haven't been sleeping super well -- my own fault entirely, i keep get... » Continue Reading
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