good morning

anyway, depressive episode update, i've been watching jacksepticeye play subnautica -- the full release; i watched his old series when it was early access as it was coming out in like, bits and pieces, but i never actually fully watched him play the full game & i've never played it myself either. i'm up to him playing the below zero early access right now -- i fell asleep to it, lmao -- and honestly? having something to just put on has been a weird comfort. it reminds me of when i was watching spn for the first time and for like, five months i never had to think about "oh, what am i gonna do today?" b/c the answer was always "watch as many supernatural episodes as i can cram in."

it's made it easier to go about my day, in a weird way, because i know there's always gonna be something playing in the background. whenever i finish the below zero stuff & then the revisited video, i'm gonna have to find something else to fill the gap -- maybe i'll be boring, maybe i'll start listening to a podcast or something. that's the whole reason people listen to them, right? for more "mature" background noise?

that sounds wrong. but oh well.

i'm gonna go make decaf coffee (caffeine gives me heart palps) and try and make some breakfast, and then see where today goes. hopefully, probably, it's just gonna go in the direction of me doing some painting, a tiny bit of work, and then taking a nap/playing the sims. we'll see though.

happy v-day weekend,

-patch