"for so long I've been nothing but a scope behind a rifle..."
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Category: Religion and Philosophy
Prayer to Apollon - in wishes of good health Phoebus Apollo, bearer of health, for You we compose our song, and favorably promote Your discoveries. With Your healing arts, You lead life back when it is withdrawn from us and recall us from joining the Manes in Heaven. You who formerly dwelt in the temples of Aegea, Pergamum, and Epidaurum, and who drove off the Python from Your peaceful house at De... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
ive been confused for a little bit. me and the guy i like were taking like these tests online that are like "psychopathic test", "love style test", "borderline test" and stuff and it was fun to do with him, but then we did a homophobic test as a joke. i got like 6% affective homophobia, 15% cognitive homophobia, 0% behavioral homophobia, and 7% total homophobia. i sent the results since we both kn... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
guy i like likes me back. yet we cannot be together since he has trust issues from his stupid ass ex and he wants to try dating this other girl since him and i are long distance. though he wrote this whole thing for me that was intended to be an apology, though slowly turned into a love confession. my heart tears apart as i read it every day because it means so much to me that he even has any sort... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
it constantly feels like someone is watching me again. its like that feeling never goes away, why? ive got black out curtains, ive covered every mirror, i keep the lights on, i even got this weird witch craft thing to put on my door to keep bad spirits away. i am afraid. i dont know why, i just feel like i am being watched everywhere i go. i cover my device cameras with clothes, i dont leave the h... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
on call with the guy i like right now, but my friend is sleeping behind me. best friend if you still even read these mason. i was streaming yttd and he fell asleep, been grinding it all night and i just wanna fucking shoot myself over this stupid game. anyway, woke up mad as hell today because one of my friends (guy who ghosted us for his gf) texted me being all like "can you make a discord server... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
hi i just got a new keyboard, it's really pretty. so im sorry if i have a few typos since im struggling a little bit with the keycaps. though ive been having even more pain, i am thinking about getting all my wisdom teeth removed at once on the 8th since i have to remove them all at some point anyway. been getting even closer with the guy i like and i feel as if i can make it work. though maybe i... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
went to the oral surgeon today, i want to kill myself really bad now. we go and i take a 3d xray or whatever, they look at the tooth bothering me and it turns out that my wisdom tooth was literally breaking my jaw which is why i was in so much pain. theyre planning on taking me into surgery on october 8th, which is like 2 weeks from now bro. im actually gonna shoot myself in the head. but they can... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
agghhAGHHHH AHHHH i was talking to the guy i like right and he was like "im bored lets have a deep convo" so we started like talking about our families and his ex boyfriend and stuff like that and i enjoyed it because it feels like hes really the only person who understands me in a way. and i was listening to jeff buckley and i was sending him these stupid ass lyrics cuz we both like jeff buckley ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
my crush fell asleep with me on call so im awkwardly trying to be quiet while typing this, but hooooly fuck hes so cute. like i know i shouldnt say that about like a boy my age and stuff and whatever but like hes so adorable. not to be like weird about it but i like when he falls asleep with his camera on because he just. looks so cute ahhhhhh......... i love him, i really do. he was being so sill... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
god i want him SO fucking bad its not even funny. i know its wrong because we're both boys and he likes another girl, but i just cant help it. i dont know why. hes a great friend, hes perfect in like every way, so why would he even want me? im nothing compared to him. it makes me feel so lonely because i want to be the one to provide him with love and affection and stuff, but like aghhhh he would ... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
god i try every god damn day to get over him and he makes it so fucking hard every time. i dont know for sure but i think he assumed ive already gotten over him so i think thats a good thing so it wont be that awkward. but he still talks about this girl he likes and its like ahhhhhhhh....... like of course he can like whoever he likes and stuff but it just still makes me sad, but i dont tell him t... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i went to jerry fest today with my friend, it was fun. though nothing really special. my teeth arent getting better, so honestly i just wanna fucking shoot myself over it. maybe theyll find something with my next visit. im gonna call my grandma about it tomorrow if its still really bad since im almost out of codeine. stupid ass friends are still fighting but like whatever. ive been drinking more w... » Continue Reading
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