god i want him SO fucking bad its not even funny. i know its wrong because we're both boys and he likes another girl, but i just cant help it. i dont know why. hes a great friend, hes perfect in like every way, so why would he even want me? im nothing compared to him. it makes me feel so lonely because i want to be the one to provide him with love and affection and stuff, but like aghhhh he would never want me in any way other than friends. but recently he hasnt been talking about the girl he likes to me, so it kinda makes me happy selfishly enough. agh hes texting me rn. dies. anyway, hes been more like jokingly flirty with me again so that makes me happy that things are slowly returning to normal. i just. agh. so we read the summer hikaru died, finished it together right. and in class today he was drawing them and im like awee dats us cuz we joke about it all the time. AND HE DREW US AS THEM. I WANT TO FUCKING CRY MY EYES OUT EBCAUSE I WANNA FUCKIGN KILL MYSELF AND HOLDHIM IN MY ARMS AT THR SAME TIME. I HATE MY LFIE. I CANt post it though in case he sees it. heh. but like its so fucking cute and i love him so bad. hehehehehehehehehhehehehehrerhaRHE

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5starslikegta
i made the drawing my twitter banner HEHEHEHE