"for so long I've been nothing but a scope behind a rifle..."
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Category: Romance and Relationships
agghhAGHHHH AHHHH i was talking to the guy i like right and he was like "im bored lets have a deep convo" so we started like talking about our families and his ex boyfriend and stuff like that and i enjoyed it because it feels like hes really the only person who understands me in a way. and i was listening to jeff buckley and i was sending him these stupid ass lyrics cuz we both like jeff buckley ... » Continue Reading
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my crush fell asleep with me on call so im awkwardly trying to be quiet while typing this, but hooooly fuck hes so cute. like i know i shouldnt say that about like a boy my age and stuff and whatever but like hes so adorable. not to be like weird about it but i like when he falls asleep with his camera on because he just. looks so cute ahhhhhh......... i love him, i really do. he was being so sill... » Continue Reading
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Category: Romance and Relationships
god i want him SO fucking bad its not even funny. i know its wrong because we're both boys and he likes another girl, but i just cant help it. i dont know why. hes a great friend, hes perfect in like every way, so why would he even want me? im nothing compared to him. it makes me feel so lonely because i want to be the one to provide him with love and affection and stuff, but like aghhhh he would ... » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
god i try every god damn day to get over him and he makes it so fucking hard every time. i dont know for sure but i think he assumed ive already gotten over him so i think thats a good thing so it wont be that awkward. but he still talks about this girl he likes and its like ahhhhhhhh....... like of course he can like whoever he likes and stuff but it just still makes me sad, but i dont tell him t... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i went to jerry fest today with my friend, it was fun. though nothing really special. my teeth arent getting better, so honestly i just wanna fucking shoot myself over it. maybe theyll find something with my next visit. im gonna call my grandma about it tomorrow if its still really bad since im almost out of codeine. stupid ass friends are still fighting but like whatever. ive been drinking more w... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
my life is a fucking joke honestly. its like i cant do anything without something bad happening. got home from the dentist, my family takes my acetaminophen away from me because it has codeine in it. im not a fucking junkie like my stupid ass grandma so she can hop the fuck off my dick because i dont abuse my pills unlike her dumb ungrateful ass. my dad ended up giving me a few and its like im bei... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
just went to the dentist today, my life is nothing but constant misery. ive been having recent pains in my back right molars and i just got the furthest one pulled a few months ago. i needed two fillings on my right canine and the tooth behind it. when my dentist was performing the fillings, the cold water and air being used was hurting my pulled tooth so bad that i almost started sobbing. he had ... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
here again to talk about things i hate about fear and hunger fandom. keep getting samarie/samarina in my feed and it annoys the fucking shit out of me because samarie fucking sucks and the ship is actually ass. i saw a tweet of samarie and the caption said "say what you want about samarie killing father domek buuuut to be fair he hit her first and he also really deserved it so" and its just like ?... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i have been trying to talk more to my friends, but it just isnt working. no one talks to me. what the fuck is this dogshit ass logic. how the hell is not talking to my friends not okay, but when i actually do try its still apparently not okay. IM GONNA FUCKING SHOOT MYSELF IN THE DICK OUT OF ANGER. not actually though. but still, why me god? why cant i just be good enough? i just want to disappear... » Continue Reading
Category: Games
i know this isnt like my usual blogs, and again i dont expect anyone to read these blogs so sorry if you actually force yourself to do it. but i really wanna ramble about fear and hunger stuff since i dont want to bother my friends about it or my mom. i made a twitter post yesterday that was like 2 different types of people being like "i suffered, why shouldnt they?" and then "i suffered, and ill ... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i want to be smart. i want to go to school. i want to have friends. i want to have teachers who help me get through in life. i want to exercise and not be weak. i want to be normal. i dont want to be locked in my house. i dont want to be alone. i want to be loved, to be held, to be cared for. i want to have a family, to have kids of my own that i would take care and treat it better than anyone had... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i wish i knew what lays beyond life. i want to know if theres an afterlife, if theres a heaven or hell, elysium, asphodel, a blank void, the underworld, i want to know. maybe then i wouldnt be so afraid to die if i knew what was after death. or maybe knowing what'd happen would save me, making me live life to its fullest. its alright though, i think id prefer not knowing. its scary thinking about ... » Continue Reading
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