17/01/2025 i've been thinking a lot about why i am the way i am. like, why do i feel this constant need to share so much about myself? it’s like i want people to know me, my thoughts, my day, what i’m feeling. i used to post a lot on my public tiktok account, but now i hold back because classmates started stalking it, and it just feels... uncomfortable. but even outside of that, i’ve a » Continue Reading
17/01/2025 school feels like such a waste of time for me. most lessons feel pointless because the structure doesn’t work. a lot of the time, classes are either too slow or too boring, which makes it hard to stay focused. and even when i try, the environment is so distracting. there’s constant talking, disruptions, or conversations about things that have nothing to do with the lesson. » Continue Reading
14/01/2025 i don’t hate going to school as much as i used to. having friends makes such a difference, and being able to keep myself occupied during lessons helps the days go by a little easier. it’s not like i love school, but it’s manageable. still, there’s this group of boys who make it harder than it needs to be. they don’t outright » Continue Reading
06-01-2025 winter break is over, and today i have to go back to school. ugh, i’m so tired! during the break, i stayed up till 2 or even 3 am, and now i have to fix my sleep schedule because waking up early feels like torture. last night i managed to fall asleep around 1:30 am, so maybe that’s a start? still, i’m already dreading the midday slump. » Continue Reading
it feels like everyone around me is finding love so effortlessly—whether it’s online or in real life. even if their relationships don’t last, they still get to feel that spark, that connection, even if it’s fleeting. they get to experience the highs and lows, the excitement of being chosen by someone. meanwhile, i’ve been waiting and waiting for the right person, but it feels like they’re never co... » Continue Reading
i hold the broken pieces of me turning them over in my hands— do i glue them back together, or let the light shine through the gaps? » Continue Reading
a lot of people say personality matters more than looks, but in reality, looks are often the first thing we notice about someone. it's human nature to make judgments based on appearance, and in many situations, it’s the first thing people see. we live in a society where physical attractiveness is often emphasized, especially in the world of dating apps and social media, where images are everything... » Continue Reading
"the love and kindness you give to others will always find its way back to you." i’ve always believed in this, and it’s something i try to live by every day. i put a lot of effort into being kind to people, whether it’s online or in real life. i love giving compliments, offering comforting words when someone is down, and giving advice when i think it might help. it’s not just about making people f... » Continue Reading
(vent) oh god, i feel so sad. i have this best best best friend. we've been inseparable for 7 years. i love her so much, and we're so close. we literally live across the street from each other and go on walks every week. her parents recently started talking about moving to sweden. at first, it was just this silly dream they had, nothing serious. but then, little by little, it stopped feeling silly... » Continue Reading