not ready to let go...

(vent) oh god, i feel so sad.

i have this best best best friend. we've been inseparable for 7 years. i love her so much, and we're so close. we literally live across the street from each other and go on walks every week. her parents recently started talking about moving to sweden. at first, it was just this silly dream they had, nothing serious. but then, little by little, it stopped feeling silly. they got serious about it, started researching, making plans. and i thought, oh, moving to another country takes time... they probably won’t go for at least two years or something.

but i was so wrong.

we went on one of our walks again, just like we always do. we talked about everything, had a great time. as usual, when the walk was over, we stood outside her door for another half hour just talking more, laughing. it was one of those perfect evenings; dark but cozy, not too cold, just... nice.

then i asked. i don’t even know why. i guess i was curious, so i said, “hey, so when do your parents think they’ll move to sweden? like, in two years or something?”

and she just looked at me for a second, and then said, “oh... well, if everything works out, they want to move next february. we’ve already found a house.”

...

what? next february? like, february 2025? that’s in 2–3 months. i just froze. i couldn’t say anything. i had to fight so hard not to cry because i didn’t want her to feel guilty. i don’t want her to feel bad about leaving—it’s not like she can just not go.

but oh my god, i don’t want her to leave.

we’ve already promised we’ll stay friends. we’ll text all the time, we’ll call (even though i suck at calling, i’ll do it for her), and we even talked about sending letters to each other. and i know we’ll make it work. i know we will.

but i’m still going to miss her so much. nothing’s ever going to feel the same without her. i love her so fucking much its insane.