blog blog #1

06-01-2025

winter break is over, and today i have to go back to school. ugh, i’m so tired! during the break, i stayed up till 2 or even 3 am, and now i have to fix my sleep schedule because waking up early feels like torture. last night i managed to fall asleep around 1:30 am, so maybe that’s a start? still, i’m already dreading the midday slump.

the good news is that this is my last year of dutch middle school. ehh, is that really good though? exams are coming in may, and i’m kind of terrified. people keep saying, “the final tests are harder than the exams, so if you pass those, you’ll pass the exam,” but that doesn’t make me feel much better. like, the idea of sitting in a silent room for three hours straight, knowing this one test defines so much... it feels like everything i’ve learned all these years builds up to this. no pressure, right?

i just don’t know how i’ll handle the stress. i’m already a bit of a perfectionist, so the thought of messing up on something this big is... well, not fun. but i guess all i can do is try my best and take it one step at a time. deep breaths, right?

anyway, i should go eat breakfast now before i run out of time. here’s to surviving the first day back. okay, bye!