"not okay rn"
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Category: Writing and Poetry
1825 days shifting slightly but still in the same spot. i find my hands and lift myself off the ground, still looking through an empty void. » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
in a motel with my family finally, not staying at a friends no more. its actually rlly shit cuz my fam hates me. i've been going through a manic episode so that means after its done i'll crash dramatically into a wall (song ref from my sotd below lol) so i can't wait for that (sarcasm). i have been getting out of the house more, my friends drag me out of the motel and we fuck around lmao. i went ... » Continue Reading
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(my friends grandad is talking about politics LOL help) my day was surprisingly nice. saw my family and it was fine, came home and hung out with abby, we blasted some amazing music outside and played with her dogs Kai, Red and Lulu, they're sweethearts. then we sang our hearts out to some older tunes. she left for work and i was home alone so i played some twenty one pilots and made some toast and... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
i have this sinking feeling that everyone i've ever known and been close to in my life wants to push me away. my family doesn't want me around, maybe since we've been homeless and i've been at my friends place with my cat and they have motel hopped 8 times, that they've realised that not having me around is more p » Continue Reading
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i've stayed at my friends place for 9 days, and i moved from sleeping on her floor to sleeping in a front room near her birds who are so fucking loud at 5 in the fucking morning. i feel like i did something to annoy her cuz she doesn't really talk to me much, i feel like a rando living in there house :(. currently at the 8th motel my fam is staying at, some people got my fam a motel to stay in fo... » Continue Reading
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update: still homeless okay but fr, we have been motel hopping for a few days and are running out of money to pay for them and my whole family is freaking out. i left my friends house yesterday and i'm back in another motel w my fam. i have another friend who has kindly said she'll let me stay at hers for a week with Cinnamon (my cat) if needed, paying for necessities for me like food n stuff cuz ... » Continue Reading
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Category: Blogging
we'll be in a motel in town but yeah, there's a rodeo coming up here so finding a motel or caravan park was hard cuz country fucks love to come down here to watch... horses ? idk its been a while. anyways it still hasn't hit me cuz i've been emotionally numb this whole month and nothing feels real. i've just been listening to TØP to stop me from ending it all ( I KNOW I'M TALKING ABT THEM AGAIN BU... » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
writers block is a bitch, my best friend seems to get some lyrics down for future songs we want to make cuz we wanna share our passion together (such besties of us) but i'm stuck with unfinished stanzas and sad feelings in my heart. currently listening the saddest, heart wrenching twenty one pilots songs to either motivate me, or tear me down and figuratively fuck me till i'm pulp lying on my mess... » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
I just wish someone would give a fuck about my interests and want to talk to me. I feel invisible, maybe it’s better off that way. I can haunt my family like a bad omen over their shoulders and hide in the corners of my bedroom » Continue Reading
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Category: Writing and Poetry
Sitting in the rain. The droplets on the car window glisten in the street lights, infinitely racing to the bottom of the glass. The comfortable snug of my headphones over my ears muffling the sounds of wa » Continue Reading
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Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
but you built a home for me in the grove~ also a drawing i did yesterday, its more of a design that that i will redraw later thats why its not the best lolz its very rough don't judge i was TIRED » Continue Reading
Category: Writing and Poetry
this melody has been stuck in my head. at least for 4 years now. it goes "it'll get better." over and over. when i wake up, when i go to sleep, when i'm at school, when i'm watching with piercing eyes at the layers of skin and flesh open up on my arms, when i'm crying in the shower. "it'll get better" it sings to me. filling my ears like tinnitus, the same old sound. I've started to play it to a t... » Continue Reading
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