the 21st is coming up, then we'll be homeless.

we'll be in a motel in town but yeah, there's a rodeo coming up here so finding a motel or caravan park was hard cuz country fucks love to come down here to watch... horses ? idk its been a while. anyways it still hasn't hit me cuz i've been emotionally numb this whole month and nothing feels real. i've just been listening to TØP to stop me from ending it all ( I KNOW I'M TALKING ABT THEM AGAIN BUT THEY SAVED MEH SO SHUT UP!!!!). anyways, life has been,, idk i just don't care anymore. nothing feels real. i don't care. 

uhhh so this was a life update from the local rural town emo who doesn't know anything but his own mind. i'm gonna go cry cuz i can't drink, smoke or get high rn. 

song of the day (this will never be daily) i'm listening to this as i type lmao.