Alexa

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"Yeah I’m AFAB… assigned freak at birth"

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Aaaaa

Category: Life

The body dysmorphia and general dislike of my looks hit hard tonight. 🫠 All because I saw a gorgeous girl on tiktok that I wish that I looked like. It’s not fair that we can’t customize our bodies like character customization in a video game.  » Continue Reading

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Birthdays

Category: Life

My birthday is on the 21st. The thought of being 29, of aging more makes me feel sick. It means that I’m closer to 30 while I haven’t done anything remarkable with my life yet. It means another year has passed of me being unemployed and therefore considered a failure. It also means that my parents are getting older too and they won’t be around forever. There’s so much that I don’t understand and I... » Continue Reading

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➖🟰 Dyscalculia ✖️➗

Category: Life

I have dyslexia’s math related cousin called dyscalculia. It doesn’t get as much recognition so I was happy to see this cute video about it.  https://youtu.be/vkSxMZ0vTSk » Continue Reading

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Losing weight

Category: Life

I’ve lost six pounds from not eating as much due to lack of food. My parents barely eat in comparison to how Wren and I usually eat (they’re damn skinny, well at least my stepdad is) anyway, I feel like shit because of it. I’m hypoglycemic as it is. I want to lose weight but I don’t want to starve either. I hate diet culture. I hate how people act like starving yourself is good. They’re only happy... » Continue Reading

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Category: Jobs, Work, Careers

I’m so stressed about finding work. 😩 I hate being disabled, not disabled enough apparently to be eligible for SSI but definitely going through things whenever my body feels like acting up. It’s not just my body either, like I can’t function as a ‘normal’ human being because my brain presses the panic button over the stupidest things. Yet even people in my family have the audacity to say that I’m ... » Continue Reading

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Tinder

Category: Romance and Relationships

Nothing is more depressing than going on dating apps, particularly tinder. I see these gorgeous women that I’d be interested in but I’m so ashamed of myself and my looks (plus I’m polyam and most aren’t) that I swipe left on plenty of girls. Why would they like me, you know? Also I’m disabled and healthy people just don’t get the struggles that I face. Even making friends is hard for similar reaso... » Continue Reading

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Sigh

Category: Life

Got sick again today. I want to cancel my flight because the stress of airports and flying triggers my symptoms sometimes. I also don’t want to be sick at my great-aunt’s place. Canceling on my dad for this trip would cause a shitstorm because my dad is a control freak. If I told him that I’m trying to get in to see a doctor about this because I’m worried for my health then maybe he’d be more unde... » Continue Reading

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Ranting about mean people

Category: Life

People are equal parts mean and stupid. I was standing outside of my car while leaning into the driver’s seat organizing things, not paying attention to my surroundings. Its important to note that there were several empty parking spots behind/next to me. I didn't hear a woman and her quiet car pull up so I just continued what I was doing. I’m not sure how long she’d been wanting to park DIRECTLY N... » Continue Reading

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Ranting

Category: Life

I think that I’m an adult who can do things. Then I almost get scammed AGAIN because I’m gullible and autistic and sheltered. It pisses me off and embarrasses me so much. It also scares me because I can’t live/function alone but I don’t want to have to rely on other people my whole life. I don’t want to be like a child forever who doesn’t understand things. The world keeps burning me because I’m t... » Continue Reading

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Love my toxic family

Category: Life

I told my mom that I was sick due to my IBS yesterday and that my girlfriend almost passed out yesterday so I was worried about her. My mom responded with “well I’m worried about you two not having jobs.” Fuck you. Next time you’re sick at home from work I won’t feel sorry for you, I’ll say the same shit about you not working. How uncaring do you have to be?  » Continue Reading

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