So I did a brave thing for someone with anxiety; I went to a holi party of sorts with my girlfriend Wren that a local gay guy was hosting. I was anxious and I was expecting it to be mostly older gay men there but there was a couple guys younger than me there also and one that was maybe an older millennial. He had just gotten a Bulbasaur tattoo that looked awesome. He had a Spirited Away one too. L... » Continue Reading
My girlfriend & I broke up with our other girlfriend last night. We moved states a few weeks ago & since then we barely talk to her. She also is seeing this new girl and barely has time for us. I should be more upset than I am. Idk. My girlfriend was crying about it last night and I just wasn’t. It was a 6 month relationship & I had kind of prepared myself to lose her when I knew that we were movi... » Continue Reading
Our first queer support group meeting went well. I met a hot girl and a hot nonbinary person. They called me darlin and I think I inhaled very gayly in response. 🙂🫠 I met some really cool people tonight of all ages. The youngest was 18 and the oldest was in her 60’s or 70’s. Wren and I exchanged numbers with the other younger members so that was nice. I’m looking forward to our meeting next month.... » Continue Reading
When things start to settle down after you move into a new house so your depression kicks in like “what am I doing here? What will I do to keep myself entertained? Why don’t I want to do anything? How do people live their lives and not feel like shit? What is my purpose?” » Continue Reading
The move has been so stressful and exhausting. I had a panic attack during the 9 hour drive. First my face started getting tingly on one side, like when a limb falls asleep. This eventually progressed to my entire face. When I started to cry my eyes started burning until I could barely see. It was terrifying. Thank god there was hardly any traffic because it was the wee hours of the morning so I d... » Continue Reading
My mom says that we’re moving Thursday now (idk if that’ll actually happen because there’s still a lot that needs done) but it’s getting very real for me. » Continue Reading
I went to a local used game/cd/comic store that’s in the city that we’re staying in to look for my first vinyl for my record player. When I was looking at options a girl who looked around my age complimented my rainbow shoes ( https://imgur.com/a/1mZxdlB ) and said that they match her glasses, which were also rainbow. I’m pretty sure she was flirting with me, idk though. The guy she was with could... » Continue Reading
The AT&T outage is making me nervous. I have two bars right now. My family doesn’t have a landline phone. Our internet works at least, different provider. Pay phones aren’t a thing anymore, not like they were once anyway. » Continue Reading
Today I fucked up by setting an alarm via my Alexa (which I have to call Ziggy since we share the same name otherwise) in my half asleep state for later this morning. I didn’t realize that the alarm was set for tomorrow instead so I slept through the morning and missed what was possibly my last appointment ever with my therapist because I’m moving states in a few weeks. I’m frustrated and crushed.... » Continue Reading
Sometimes I’ll see a TikTok about all the bad shit that’s happening in the world right now specifically and I just feel like it’s all hopeless, like humans are willingly killing ourselves and our planet. We care more about pieces of paper that we assigned value to than we do human lives and human happiness. » Continue Reading
My mom pisses me off. I sent her videos on Snapchat of her dogs while she’s away and she has to bitch about something in the videos of course, saying that I’M ruining the house that she’s trying to sell because her puppy was briefly chewing on corners of walls in the videos. I stopped him and there’s proof in the videos but she doesn’t care. If she didn’t want damage to her house then she should’... » Continue Reading