Three’s a crowd

I mostly felt like third wheel during the beach visit yesterday with the gf and her new girlfriend.. but it wasn’t like, bad? I guess. I mean I had fun. I’m used to feeling left out and detached in so many different things these days so it’s not a big deal here. I wasn’t jealous (her girlfriend was worried I would be) and I think it’s because I’ve been at this song and dance long enough now. Sure, I felt lonely but I always feel lonely. I’m in my head 24/7 as it is, doing my own thing. They asked me if I wanted to join their relationship and my stupid ass said maybe when I wanted to say no. I’m not attracted to her girlfriend at all. Literally every person I’ve ever been attracted to is either fictional or unavailable in some way. Don’t know what that says about me. Anyway, cheers. Hope you’re doing better in your relationships than I am.