"ALL-ONE OR NONE!"
19. USAmerican. transmasc, he/her.
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Category: Romance and Relationships
i went on my first actual, real date recently :( i decided to try dating for real because i thought it'd help fill the hole inside of me, if only temporarily, and help me be 'productive' in the meanwhile as i'm waiting for the hole to actually, seriously be filled. the date itself was fine, but i made a big mistake: i shouldn't've signed up in the first place. i had a mental breakdown last month a... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i made it out. mostly. i wish i had a heart of stone. crush the scissors, curse the name. it took nearly 20 years, but i did it. i wish i could've done it even more harshly than i did. my kindness was not deserved or appreciated. but it is over, for the most part, so i am mostly happy. i got sunburnt from doing it outside, but i picked outside for a reason. it's easier to be brave when you know th... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
WHATEVER gets me through the day.... the end of the tunnel has never looked this close. i'm one heart break away from making it out. i don't know how many heart breaks it'll be till i make it (or make it) , though. it's so hard knowing what's wrong with you and how to fix it but not being able to.... i'm still stuck in the waiting game, but the hourglass is almost fucking up. sometimes i feel so g... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i kinda want to kill myself again. whatever. this is (one of) the cyclic nature(s) of things. i keep trying to convince myself that the sex will be worth it. lame as hell of me, but i have to hold onto hope. i bet it'll be alright, but i'll cry anyway because that's just the kind of man i am. maybe i cry a normal amount and you don't cry enough. » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i'm such a spitfire . i'm hotheaded in nearly every way, especially the ones that burn the most. i can't keep my hand from the stove and my head from the fever. thought i'd simmer down as i got older / can't shake the devil sitting on my shoulder stuck in a lonely loop, et » Continue Reading
Category: Romance and Relationships
i got all this love i've got to keep to myself / all this effort to make it look effortless... i'm swamped and crushed in more ways than i care to count. i was complaining earlier about the crushing societal expectation of monogamy in the western world and it will unfortunately probably ring true for a long time into the future. when i said i have two hands, i didn't mean you had to fill them, esp » Continue Reading
Category: Fashion, Style, Shopping
when i was a little kid, even up into my lower teens, i would've killed to get to dress how i dress now. i finally like how i dress! realizing that i'm trans was like finally figuring out how to do a magic trick that's been bugging me for years. my experimentation with gender presentation has opened so many doors for me fashion and confidence wise. i finally feel comfortable enough to pull basical... » Continue Reading
Category: Life
i've never been more scared about it than now, now that it's happened already, and i got over it, but it might happen again. i can't handle anything unless it's in extremes. moderation in moderation. moderation is my enemy. i always went cold turkey, even though it's deadly, because that's how i am. thank g-d for Dad, for him not knowing but helping anyway. it's so weird wanting to live. it's refr... » Continue Reading
Category: Music
broken down on memory lane, alone together, we're alone... infinity on high is one of my favorite albums ever. this song gives me such a warm feeling... 'we only want to sing you to sleep through you bedroom speakers,' and they have. the outro is such a succinct way of describing such a complex feeling. it makes my heart ache. i am broken down on memory lane. i constantly say i never get o » Continue Reading
Category: Music
someone old, no one (k)new, feeling borrowed, always blue! aka pete's screamo gives me bubberflies. whateva. this song makes my heart fucking race . reminds me of a lot of stuff + they wrote it as a mosh song so i guess that makes sense. i've always especially loved the 'so progress report: i am missing you to death' part, and the way patrick will change it to 'i'm still mis » Continue Reading
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