i had a codependent relationship with a hammer horror fan and all i got was this stupid blog written about me

someone old, no one (k)new, feeling borrowed, always blue!

aka pete's screamo gives me bubberflies. whateva.

this song makes my heart fucking race. reminds me of a lot of stuff + they wrote it as a mosh song so i guess that makes sense.

i've always especially loved the 'so progress report: i am missing you to death' part, and the way patrick will change it to 'i'm still missing you to death' live makes me feel insane. i am still missing you to death. but it's faded into being more that i miss the act of missing you to death. sometimes i wish you still lit that fire under me, even though i know it's bad for my blood pressure or whatever. triglycerides be damned. 

i kinda hate how many people (who aren't in my life anymore) this applies to. you could break a compass trying to measure/draw my heart. i am a straightedge. 

sometimes it amazes me how my life is so much better sober. fall out boy is a big part of why i'm straight edge and have managed to retain my sobriety. (10 months, not counting a minor hiccup from accidentally overdosing medicine. i'm pro-RX/medication so i don't count it. i'm not too hung up about it, but it felt fucking awful while it was happening.) fob has really inspired me to stay sober because they are all living proof that it's possible. i can live a life without addiction. i can get better. like some g-ddamned miracle, i want to live now, and they are a big reason for that. thank you, boys.