HI! before i get into my resolutions i just want to say fuck my brother for being an asshole ab me taking off schools from my application list like omfg he is so fucking cringe bc hes literally projecting his insecurities ab college onto me like its literally new years why dont we take some time to heal ur inner self before projecting ur shitass insecurities all over ur sibling! Actually I hope he... » Continue Reading
im gonna explode and die i dnt want to do anything rmnbrmnrbmnrbnmrrb im tired im tired abababjhabhababababbbbb!aaa!!!!!!!! august and september were very turbulent, but towards the end of september i think things started getting more established i think october will be a month of working on that structure ------------------------------- ROUTINE SLEEP! - again its back. im so bad w fixing this bu... » Continue Reading
mainly a reflection of this weekend but i consider my behavior throughout the weekend to be just an extension of how ive been feeling ever since coming to college so I really wanted to take some time to document this and figure things out as im writing this I am accompanied by lily chou chou playing through my cd walkman!!! i feel at home. its the first time i touched my cd player since i came to ... » Continue Reading
Hello!! currently typing this at the butler library and ngan is doing her lithum assignment next to me!!!!!!! Classes started 2 days ago and its been chill. theres quite a bit of hw (including stuff w deadlines that are pretty far away from now) but i want to make it a habit of getting stuff done early and regularly taking care of myself. so september goals will mainly be focused on academics and ... » Continue Reading
I move in in 6 days! My week long $650 very unnecessary private school treatment first year orientation begins on the 24th the schedule has been released so I was looking through it last night and it made me panic a bit...it was because a few minutes before I was also looking through the self-intros for my orientation group like lowk why am i lgbtq-maxxing compared to them...me standing in a grou... » Continue Reading
Hello August. It's finally here omg and it felt so far away before!! what!!! But also, overall summer has been feeling longer than usual, so im happy for that because i think it means i spent a lot of time doing stuff that matters I still feel a little underprepared for college, but I still have some time to figure more things out, and the actual forms and stuff i have to have done before going in... » Continue Reading
Happy july!! june went by prettyyy quickly and my goal for june was to build a foundational routine...but i basically dont have much of it ready lolllllll but theres nothing i can do ab it now! and im trying to be more positive ab things bc at the end of the summer i just want to know that i tried to do stuff at least instead of giving up bc i couldnt meet my deadlines for goals and stuff so based... » Continue Reading
originally i just drew madotsuki and had no plans for a bg...and i was originally just gonna keep it simple and just do a simple sketch but i got carried away!! pretty happy w the results though :D » Continue Reading
HELLO SUMMER BREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Its time to lock in for a fabulous, enjoyable, fun, successful summer break!!!!!!! so im gonna go back to setting monthly goals which i believe I havent done since february?? or march?? something like that My main focus for june is to steadily build a good foundational routine that I can build on to through the rest of summer! HABITUAL GOALS Drink 2 liters of ... » Continue Reading
Hello official day 3 of summer break still tired and overstimulated and sorta depressed and sappy Basically I had some kind of dream related to my physics teacher yesterday and today in some random context i dont remember what yesterday's was about but the one for today was about how there were livestock cows?? out in our neighborhood???? and I was running away and I saw my physics teacher in one ... » Continue Reading
Today was my last day of school! Graduation is exactly a week away and ive just been feeling a lot of different things I wish I could say I wasn't that busy but I've been busy painting a mural for the school through my last week of school and its unfinished so im gonna have to come back a few days next week to finish it LOL fml. But still a lot of yearbook signings, last few classes with people I ... » Continue Reading
Hello the excitement from the results wore off a bit or like yeah im also kinda sleepy and i kinda had to lock in and think instead of playing idv while filling out columbia's financial aid application (its really late ik...i apparently left out columbia when i was filling my css profile out all the way back in october i dont even know brah) i started going down this spiral when my dad called sinc... » Continue Reading