New year resolutions 2025!

HI! before i get into my resolutions i just want to say fuck my brother for being an asshole ab me taking off schools from my application list like omfg he is so fucking cringe bc hes literally projecting his insecurities ab college onto me like its literally new years why dont we take some time to heal ur inner self before projecting ur shitass insecurities all over ur sibling! Actually I hope he never recovers from his insecurities bc hes a loser and I hope his insecurities actually inflate and take over his psyche and his mental health deteriorates by the clock ^_^ 

friends just told me not to tell him whatever i do w my application from now on and they r so right...ugh

ok anyways happy 2025!!! I did some fancy resolutions on my ipad some time ago so I will post those for 2024 reflections :D

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And that was my reflection of 2024!! Pretty rough year in a lot of ways but I also learned a lot from the experiences 

now goals for 2025 except some of them will be super rambly

Wellness/Social

1. Journal at least 5 days a week
2. Be a smart and sly hater: I talked ab this in my previous blog but I want to try to get better at controlling my hatred basically and instead channeling that hatred towards just being surface level kind enough to get what I want if theres smth I need from them!! I decided to not quit ASB my final semester soooo I will try to work on this there loll....
3. Controlled rotting: I will inevitably rot but I want to try to control it and be more conscious of it so like the next time I rot I can consciously tell myself "Ok I can rot for the next 3 days since I have nothing to do but afterwards I'll lock in"
4. Less overstimulation: So like less doomscrolling and leaving calls when I'm tired
5. More thought in stress management: sorta goes with last 2 goals but just filling breaks with something that actually helps me manage stress like meditating, napping, drawing, other recreational activities, etc. just being more wary of how im taking breaks and making the best out of it
6. Make friends!!! in college!!!!!!: ya but for this one i wont rlly know until ik what college i end up going to and yaaaaa idk 

Health

1. Get to 128 lbs: 
   so basically lose 20 lbs...this is like the most embarrassing goal to like put out in public ig but tbh ive always been insecure ab my weight but it used to be likeee so embarrassing to even think of bringing that up to my peers...and like I wanted to b like o i love my body and all bodies r diverse but tbh i dont think thats working!!! like if ur happy w ur body good for u and keep feeling that way but personally like i feel fat!! I'll just put it there and i think its better to just take that in at this point😛😛😛😛 all my friends literally be skinty legend jiafei and im mr biggy bottoms eating crumbl cookies FUCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok. so. the plan is to drop ab 2 lbs per week which makes this a 10 week plan. Umm like exercise regularly and try to cut down junk food and keep a calorie checker app ig. Also I need exercise just for my mental health anyways bc I need sunlight and better sleep quality...so its 2 birds 1 stone!! 
2. More sleep, get at least 7 hours of sleep 5 days a week: This will be. the hardest goal by far but it is also like. something I need so my mood is more stabilized 

Academic?? idk what to call this

1. Fill 1500 hours for pomodoro timer app on steam (currently have ab 750? I think??)
2. Read at least 5 books: bc i hate reading and i rarely read.

And thats ab all I could think of....theres some other small/other vague goals I had like getting better at Go and art but idk! I feel likeeeeeeeee theres some goals that I would prefer to make it into a smaller monthly goal or smth.

So to keep myself accountable I'm planning to probablyyy make a set of smaller goals each week and a relevant monthly goal as well, and check on myself at the end of the week and at the end of each month

for the diet thiung I will probably make a page on notion for it and do a weekly evaluation for my weighttt and thats ab ittttt obviously i want try to be an academic weapon but its hard to make specific goals for that tbh

uhhh idk I'll probably try to come up w a more concrete system for these things as I go....like for college-related things I'll probably get a better idea once that time comes closer..!!!! these r all just vague ideas for now 

Goal for rest of this week is to clean stuff out!! Mainly my desk, wardrobe, PC, and phone...Im gonna dedicate 1 day per area I have to clean.....and afterwards I wanted to try dedicating 15 minutes everyday to clean just so I don't always have things piling....hmm we'll see!!!!!

Goal for january uhhhhhhhh idk ig I have scioly and usabo competitions coming up so I have to lock in for that!! usabo i dont rlly care as much bc its senior year and scioly i care a bit more ab bc its a team thing but also not rlly. This is the first month of this year though so I'll try to pay extra attention to the specific habits I want to make like journaling, cleaning, exercising, etc!!!!!!!

I think thats it!!!! happy new years and lets lock in