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Happy july!! june went by prettyyy quickly
and my goal for june was to build a foundational routine...but i basically dont have much of it ready lolllllll but theres nothing i can do ab it now! and im trying to be more positive ab things
bc at the end of the summer i just want to know that i tried to do stuff at least instead of giving up bc i couldnt meet my deadlines for goals and stuff
so based on how June was like and the kind of state I am in currently, my goal for July is to get back on solidifying a routine again and keeping myself physically healthy!
I expect July to be the busiest month of summer, but i also fear that i'll find myself more easily depressed and demotivated bc we're like...literally at the peak of summer
what i learned to be important it to keep realistic goalzz...and start w itty bitty stuff
GOALS
- Stick to a "morning" routine at least 5 days a week!: By morning i mean whenever i wake up...which these days its usually 12!!! but I'll try to bring it back!! AAUGH>...So far here is the routine I have in mind
- shower first thing (hopefully some day I'll be able to exercise a bit before this but for now i think i cant)
- brush teeth and whatever make bed and etc
- drink water
- stretch session!
- review plan for the day/meditate?
I want to implement exercising...but ive been in such a bad mood every time i wak eup the past few days bc of bad sleep that i realistically dont think i can do morning exercsises for the time beingf...maybe once i figure smth out w my sleep i can move forward but i think this is a good framework to move forward from - Sleep Schedule: This is actually one of my number 1 priorities bc i feel like everything else is gonna be much harder if i dont take care of this. I think i should probably be humble and start w bringing my schedule back by 30 minutes each day. And i think i need to set aside a time for my bedtime routine too bc itll just help more w physically establishing to myself that its time for bed. I think I should finish everything at least an hour before my desired bedtime...so no tasks and stuff past my routine time
- shower
- brush teeth
- night stretch??
- tea or water
- journal and plan for next day
I want to say completely reduce screen time during this routine but i think that might be too difficult hehehejeh and also i'll try to make better use of the melatonin pills i have. i realize something important for my sleep is not having a pile of thoughts just weighing on me before bed...bc i end up just thinking about those things for like an hour with my eyes closed and not falling asleep. so I really want to make sure I give myself enough time to journal and pour these thoughts out - EXERCISE: This is smth i want to gradually work on! Currently ive been exercising mostly at nighttime and it works out ok w my night owl schedule but i really do want to switch this so that im exercising in the morning instead soon. One thing i want to do is to have a more clear plan ab this including when i want to do it bc so far i havent been really blocking out a time specifically for exercising on my google calendar since i wanted to make it flexible but idk i think i should just block out a time.
- MEDITATION (at least 5 days a week! for 5 min!): I reserve a time for myself at night to reflect on myself, but I think it would also benefit me a lot it i had some time to reflect on myself in the morning! hoping to make a habit of having some sort of activity to help me be more self-reflective after i wake up
- FOLLOW PLANS (less than 7 missed tasks per week): ive established a habit of planning things but now the actual problem is executing it. and i think ive been sorta been getting away w myself making unrealistic plans partially bc i feel like i can get away w just not doing the things i planned. SO to better work on this bad habit, I think I should record the number of tasks that I failed to do each day. I'll start with less than 7 missed tasks per week, and then gradually lower the number. this way I can make sure im building a realistic plan for each day that im willing to follow
- WEIGHT LOSS: I'm hoping to be at 128 lbs by the end of the summer and i didnt check but im kinda stabilized at 130 ish rn which is a good spot to be! but I'm hoping i can stabilize to a weight beneath 130 for now
PROJECTS
- Children's book: I mean it is almost done! so hopefully get it published within the month. i should write a new set of timely goals
- Audiobook: same situation as children's book
- Game thing: highly unsure if I will get to this and I only want to worry ab it after i finish the above 2
GENERAL THINGS TO GET DONE
- Scholarships
- Driver's license uuurrggrhrghrghrghrghr.........................
- Finish going through college stuff!!!!
- Training materials for my clubs
THINGS TO TAKE AWAY
- As always reels!! which ive been happy ab but I should make sure and watch out that i dont relapse
- Lowk shorts too...i dont watch it as much as reels but i should keep making an active decision to not watch them as much
- Youtube: my recent addiction has been longer yt vids which i feel like is better than reels...but im still wasting a lot of time imo!!! and its mainly my feed thats distracting me so i want o make it so that my home feed is disabled for the majority of the day...maybe I can set up some time for this or smth...like from 12 to 6 i keep my feed disabled maybe. I'll see
June was a bit rough but theres still a lot of good things im taking w me to July! I'm starting the month off w a bit of hesitancy bc I've been kind of in a bad mind space as of recent, but I know things will get better as long as I try to make small steps forward!
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Jegg
for next month im hoping to set up more realistic goals...and also keep a pretty specific schedule and timeline for things bc college is approaching very quickly.
ive been a little loose, but its time to get myself back into pace by realizing its the start of a new month.
transitioning out of a this semi-depressed state is always hard, but trying is better than ntohing. its ok if it takes some time. well, not too much time, but eitrher way, keep trying!
Jegg
Monthly check in
im a bit intoxicated rn so this might be not the most accurate evaluation but it looks like I've had my fair share of bad days during this month. but there were also a lot of good attempts to try to maneuver through it. no specific accomplishments made in terms of projects, and i still have to do my club training stuff which i barely remmeber touching. did not exercise, and ive been missing my stretches for a while. ive gained some weight but also im on my period rn soo
no exercise done basically. like barely. ive submitted one scholarship app. recently ive gotten more into doomscrolling. not much meditation, but instead ive been "trying" to make more effort at journaling in the morning. so basically journaling twice a day, which i think is a good idea. i have made some progress towards fixing my sleep schedule, specifically recently, so i guess thats kind of a good trhing. the routine thing went well for some days, but at the moment, its not going well
listing all of these things make me feel bad because theres specifically a lot of failures, but also a month sounds long but is actyally a pretty short time. i will admit i feel like specifically recently, ive just let my mind let loose more, but i also dont want to give myself too much shit bc its not like i fucked up anything horribly, and there was a couple bad things htat hapened that were out of my control
its hard to be sure of myself and make the distinction between if im being too harsh or too soft on myself. but when i try to just set the facts straight, yeah, i havent been making rigorous attempts at achieving my goals, but thats just not me, at least as of now, and its not like theres been an absence of effort. specifically now, im kind of at a low place, but seeing the month as a whole, i made a lot of effort to make the day better, so i think thats something. change is always gradual, and i also had the realization that i want to stop being so dissapointed at myself for not meeting expectations that i was sure id be unlikely to make when i was making them. so on that note, maybe this month wasnt the BEST one out there, but i will say there was a decent number of attempts, amount of efforts, and number of meaningful failures. at leas the month felt pretty long actually. i leanred a lot, or so id like to think. but either way, as of now i want to stop discouraging myself and start pushing forward as much as i can.
i know i have a lot of imperfect sides, but i jstill just dont want to sit around and feel bad ab it. id rather just be softer on myself and let myself live a litt.e bc thats completelyt fine. and who cares its mylife. whatever makes me happy, whatever sorta eases me while still setting me on to the righ pathway...
its not ab if im not doing "great" its ab the fact that im not doing abysmally bad and that im not purposefully trying to put myself in a horrible place. generally iev been at a good track so im not gonna be mad at mtyself. i dont really care if its blind optimism. id pick this any day over blind pessimism. so thats about it.
i will give this month a 6.9/10
Jegg
Weekly check-in (~7/26/25)
hellooo last full week of july
had a wonderful start to the week where i felt productive and great for the first 3 days and then it kinda went down hill as i lost discipline.
BUT ik im gonna think more negatively ab this week bc i just came back from rotting away on ms. im aware i have a biased perspective on this rn bc yesterday i still felt good ab eveyrhting. mainly, i am just tired rn. so i want more sleep. i think thats been messing w my overall mood yesterday and today bc even the small things started irritating me. i obv dont want to be mad all the time! and maplestory's been deleted for good so i dont have to worry about ts anymore. i didnt eat that great, not a whole lot of exercise or stretching, missed 1 day for journaling, made decent progress on childresn book, no progress on audiobook, but im gonna get to it after i finish typing this.
yeah it was kinda bad. the past 3~4 days. but dips are normal and the pattern i realize is that i spend a lot more time in dips than I could be because i still have bits of the all or nothing mindset. but its ok. ive been making consistent improvements! progress is never static. i just have to try again. that will inveitably always always always happen. but just keep moving forward and i'll be ok.
perhaps it wasnt the bestest of the best week, but it was still eventful in terms of hangouts. i had fun and i felt bonded tp frneds.
havent weighed myself i n a while but lets hope nothing changed too much. but even if it did, its fien. also i think i mightve been feeling worse bc of pms, so note to self!
week eval: 5.9/10
Jegg
not a check-in but today was particularly bad-ish?? but not even that bad bc i did end up doing all the important stuff but i just felt bad bc i started my day off late and im going to bed late now. but actually i dont feel too bad?? like not as bad as usual for a bad day. i was in the shower thinking ab "I'll just do what i can do for now" and i think that mindset has finally starting bleeding into me more deeply. bc i genuinely do feel more positive and less stressed whenever im in a stressful situation!
i meant to put this in my bulletin but idk..it was just kinda hard to explain without making it sound stupid ig?? anyways im proud of myself!!! and the more i think ab it the more it makes me kinda happy...heheh
now fr gn...I just wanted to leave this as a note here so that i remember to write ab this in my actual weekly check in later
Jegg
Weekly check in (~7/19/25)
Have not been doing the best job and keeping up to goals, but ive been making progress towards. There's actually a lot that happened this week in terms of going out, and it kinda feels crazy bc all the hangouts feel like theyve been sooo long ago
not a whole lot of independent exercises done, but ive been sorta doing my routines. and as always ive been journaling often which is good. i think replacing the meditation in my morning routine with morning journaling makes more sense. i also started keeping track of my bedtime and wake up times again and im kinda still at the same place. my bed time has been ranging from 3:30 ~ 4:30 mainly. ermmmmmmmmmm.....should start locking in again bc im inching closer to my departure day
also missed deadlines for audiobook and children's book again...i made very very minimal progress for both of them but my fingers are crossed so that i can at least finish them during the month! i should stay more aware of how much progress ive made for them in a timely context. Actyally, i should just be more aware of time in general. im deep into summer break to the point where im slowly losing grasp on time as i let things go. thankfully time still feels slower than ever compared to my other summer breaks since ive been trying to journal more, and fill my days with more meaningful activity, but as always, theres always room to improve! but i should also remember that ive been making great progress in general as this is substantially better than any summer ive had in the past. Lifestyle changes is not something u do once and let go, but a continuous stream of effort u put into yourself everyday. and chances are, every day's gonna be a bit different so you always have to be alert and be ready to switch directions, or just navigate yourself differently in general. Mainly, i just want to take a good mindset and a set of habits with me to college from this summer break, and chances are, the end product i have at the end of this summer might not be satisfactory. But nevertheless, i should strive to take the best version of whatever i can make of myself with me to college, and continue to work on myself even when im at college. I think im right where im supposed to be. And even if things worked out perfectly throughout summer, there will still be new struggles regardless when i get to college. so basically, point is, less anxiety and more action! Brushing off failures of the past is a symbol of strength too
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i probably will not get to creating a game. i mean maybe i can make a simple one on scratch, but i still kinda have too much on my plate to consider adding new stuff. i want to focus on whatever i have rn first.
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its been a busy week w ppl, and theres also been a lot of negative thoughts floating around, partially bc its just hard for me to switch codes in my head to my "work mode" right after hanging out or the day after hanging out. Like im also just not used to having a weekful of so many outings. But I'll work towards it. I at least don't think this week was a waste of time and was a unique week in its own.
prob like a 6.5/10
Jegg
Weekly check in (~7/12/25)
Lowk like yeah theres been some slack but why was this week lowk eventful! The more i look at my entries the more I realize how much stuff there was happening and its crazy. I guess I did see a lot of people and do stuff. And yeah theres always the same complaints here and there, but it looks like I did always try to do stuff and that makes me proud! Bedtime fixing has still been an issue, but I’ve been keeping track of doing specific tasks (like a mini habit tracker) and its been helpful. I’ve been following a routine more for bedtime and waking up and i think thats been helping my day feel more structured even if I end up not doing a whole lot during it. I set my goal for each week to have 7 missed tasks max and I missed 6 this week, so its under that criteria which i feel good ab it. Yes it always feels like theres room to improve but im just happy i had at least a couple of days where i felt good or neutral ab my day! I think im making progress, although its just some modest stuff, and that makes this week feel much better :) overall i am actually pretty content w this week…especially because as im reflecting on it now, ive been a little stressed ab feeling like i havent been doing much, but turns out i have. I will rate this week a 7/10!
Jegg
Weekly check-in (~7/4/25)
so far weak start to the month bc there was only 1 day where i followed through with the morning and bedtime routine, but that 1 day was actually super fulfilling and awesome which says a lot!
made lots of mistakes and i feel like suddenly a lot of bad things just happened w friends and that brought my morale down but we will power through. Just acknowledge the things u missed and move on and try to do as much as you can!