SEPTEMBER AFFIRMATIONS

Hello!! currently typing this at the butler library and ngan is doing her lithum assignment next to me!!!!!!!

Classes started 2 days ago and its been chill. theres quite a bit of hw (including stuff w deadlines that are pretty far away from now) but i want to make it a habit of getting stuff done early and regularly taking care of myself.

so september goals will mainly be focused on academics and keeping a good routine! theres also just a lot of information that im still continuing to sponge up....i want to join clubs and do a lot more but it feels so overwhleming thinking about everything i want to do, but i think trying to designate a time for specific tasks and taking care of them one by one will help me. It's most important to try to be aware when I'm starting to feel overwhelmed and to try to ground myself back into the moment whether that's through journaling or meditating or whatever.

I might not be able to write down every single thing I want to do here bc honestly theres so fucking much!!!!!!!!! but I'll try my best to get in detail into specific things and maybe try to prioritize certain goals over the other

August was very turbulent and I anticipate September will be too, but I really want to try to have fun and be positive!!!!!!!!!! 

i've been mostly stressed w meeting ppl and being social throughout orientation, and things have gotten a bit better as classes have started, but I really want to remind myself to prioritize myself and academics first before anything! school is fucking expensive yo!

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ROUTINE/HABIT GOALS:

• TUESDAY CLEANING DAYS! Now that I have a class schedule I have a better idea of when I want to do this...I'm free after 2 so I'm hoping I can just go back to my dorm maybe take a break for a bit and to start tidying stuff for 30 minutes to like an hour??? sweep the floors and etc. My desk keeps getting cluttered and I hate looking at it lowk!!!!! EEEEEEERRRGGg
• SLEEP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!MAIN. Priority. and its bc im fucking doomscrolling stop doomscrolling I'll fucking kill you stop doomscrolling stop doomscrolling stop. doomscrolling. ur not funny.
• Establish a concrete morning and night routine...though this is smth i feel like I should slowly build up to....even if its smth really simple id be happy....
• GET BACK TO MORNING JOURNALING!!!!! this habit slipped out of me but this was honestly one of the most beneficial habits to have so far....really really need to get it back!!!!!!!

MAKING USE OF RESOURCES:

• FREEBIES!!!! keep looking out for opportunities...share w ppl if they need anything like tide pods and brita filters and etc as a sort of investment...be nice and be resourceful, dont waste money, keep track of how much you're spending if you go out....idk yet but lets try to not go past $600 (though I really doubt it)...try to just make things work as they are youre good at that!!!!! do not buy stupid shit and do not buy more clothes than u need!!! get free stuff though!!!! 
• SCHOLARSHIPS: It would be nice to dedicate some time every 2~3 days to research about these and work on them...It would also be nice to find a group of people to just work on scholarship stuff together now and then for like an hour or 2...i want to ask lily but idk!!!!! I'll see
• FLI STUFF TAKE ADVANTAGE OF IT!!! Research. know how all the funds work try to take advantage of all the free programs whatever the fuck they're doing.

ACADEMICS:

• Let's have a consistent study schedule and know how much time to dedicate for each class. I think the number of credits is indicative of how many hours you should be spending per class and I think thats a like a good rule of thumb to begin w. like im thinking it would be good to do some active recall during the same day of lectures, and a bit more afterwards too! it would just be good to have a system of studying for each class that I can follow through. And i think repetition of smaller sessions tops cramming the fuck out of whatever so I really want to adapt that into my routine. It would be nice to have a study group specific for the class, but it's also not neccessary. I just want a long-term studybuddy tbh to just lock in on stuff daily bc ya i could go to the library by myself but ermmmm dont trust myself. theoretically this kind of relationship should be easy to establish. i want to try to spend time at the library everyday for at least a bit if possible even if its just to journal bc i think its a good space to help me focus but yeah. idrk if i can find someone who can go w me like every single day but maybe we can figure out different schedules for multiple ppl or smth like that.....need to figure this more out...especially for studying, i think the method would depend on the class so..!! ya!! and i feel like it would be a good habit to have to go to the library everyday just to work on hw too so ya. ya!!!!!!! this is a really good goal to have,
• GO TO OFFICE HOURS!!! Really nervous about it but I want to really really go!! I will try to go!!! I want to take time to like maybe write down questions before and FUCKING IDK!!! either way I really just want to go I think I should go!!!!!!!!!
• I'll figure this more out as I join clubs but I want to absorb and gather lots of information from upperclassmen as I go!!!!!!!!!!!! mainly its stuff like
  
  -do i pursue premed or like idfk what to do tbh. tuition's expensive so i want to make it worth it but idk what major i would switch to and idk idk idk idk!!!!
  -where to try to get research experience and stuff BBBBAAAHHHHHHH

FUN THINGS...ETC STUFF:

• Finish audiobook! this is a soft goal bc ik i may be busy
• Make vlogs! also soft goal
• Draw more and do fun stuff like walking around campus and drawing! may be the most doable fun goal out of here hehehehehhehe
• Side gigs??? also soft goal....idrk!! i want to make money GGGRAAAGHHH

MORE STRAIGHTFORWARD TASKS TO DO SOON:

• mark office hours on google calendar
• notion page on eating better...update. or whatever
  

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OK SO MANY GOALS but also I really wanted to write all of these down somehwere so I feel much better. There's a lot of stuff so I want to keep referring back to here if possible.....it's hard to like...idk make plans ahead but really need to!!! I want to come back to the library tmr to think more about specific tasks and ya....ermmm this week's almost over so i wont do a weekly goal but for next week i want to set up some specific weekly goals!

not everything will work out and there will be times where I'll be depressed but ik if I keep striving to do better things will get better!!!!!!!! BBBBAAAAAA!!!!!!! fight on jegg and happy septemeber!

ALSO TAKE GOOGLE CALENDAR MORE SERIOUSLY EERRGGGGAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!