I haven't had a good birthday since I was 19. but when I think about it, that sounds like it makes sense. as you get older, things like birthdays become less...interesting? like it just becomes another day except maybe you eat cake or have a little sweet treat and maybe someone passes you a card with a bunch of sloppily signed names in it which means nothing to you. or you're like me and you're j... » Continue Reading
its christmas. i will now proceed to show you the things i have recived. eh maybe. im like exhausted so this is gonna be a really shit haul lmao. TIME: 12:40 AM | MOOD: TIRED AF | LISTENING: A VERY 1999 CHRISTMAS- JSCHLATT as state » Continue Reading
the only good thing about us not doing Christmas this year is that I have not ONCE heard that bitchass Mariah Carey song this month. i don't know how I managed to completely avoid it. its a Christmas miracle I guess. man. this fuckin sucks. » Continue Reading
spent a good 85% of my day on youtube. i have a fucking commission to finish. i have no fucking clue how to get OUTTA HERE. i can't pry myself away. i have no life to live, so it's just so easy to get sucked into other people's lives. it's so easy for me to watch videos of people starting their webcomics while mine remains an idea. it's so easy to watch videos of people making the types of art t... » Continue Reading
dude. this year has seriously been the fuckin WORST. .logo { content:url("https://i.postimg.cc/JzZyr75W/spacehey-star.png") } nav .top { background: color: black; } nav { background: black url(""); } body { background: white; background-image: url("https://64.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_lwuqtfTxWZ1r5qrimo1_500.gifv"); » Continue Reading
its 3 am. you're struggling to fall asleep, like always. you took your last melatonin pill 2 hours ago and it has yet to do shit. so, like any sane and normal person would do in this situation, you reluctantly type in "boyfriend asmr sleep" in the search bar on the chrome version of YouTube.com and proceed to go through and listen to a bunch by the same guy. it didn't work btw. you still couldn't ... » Continue Reading
I have always had this fear of quitting or being forced to quit art/drawing. and lately it has been looming over me all year. I think I can say without out a doubt that I am in some sort of severe depression right now. I dont need a diagnosis this shit is very apparent lol. every month this year has been me getting worse and worse, hating myself more and more, and doing less and less and less. I f... » Continue Reading
i don't know how to get rid of it. i thought it would be so easy to get off/stay off of it but no. i just can pry myself away. i will stay on for hours and when i get off i don't feel alive and don't know how to function. like i just kinda. dissociate. and it takes forever to come back to reality. my brain is absolutely FUCKED. i've disabled it on my phone and my tablet but i can still access it t... » Continue Reading