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i nabbed some new layouts because my old rainbow one was broke, and i feel like i get too sad over here anyways to have such a cute rainbow theme. i am gonna miss that rainbow theme tho.

speakin of which, i went and privated most of my depressive episode related blogs. not all because some are like super tame and i feel like they don't make me look like a raging fucking chronically online idiot like the other ones do/did. 

i don't know what the hell i'm gonna start puttin' over here. i really wanted this to be like i dunno, a casual blog where i talk about my day or some cool thing i got orr yk those silly little things people blogged about back in the myspace days. and i've said all this before lol. being depressed makes it real hard for me to talk about anything that isn't my MISERY. i want to, i do. i want to do things like talk to people and get rid of all my social medias instead of my blogs because i like blogging i like to YAP i don't like this short attention span bullshit that modern day social medias are catering to. there are so many things that i want to do. NEED to do. buuut my addictive and destructive personality has other plans. that was something i wanted to work on this year but BIG SURPRISE; addict is still addicted to thing. i'm just gonna blame this on my dad.

okay. yeah. that's it lol. i'll end this now before i get even more off topic.