ch ritsms haul

its christmas. i will now proceed to show you the things i have recived. eh maybe. im like exhausted so this is gonna be a really shit haul lmao.

TIME: 12:40 AM | MOOD: TIRED AF | LISTENING: A VERY 1999 CHRISTMAS- JSCHLATT

as stated in previous blog post, we are poor as shit so we didn't get much. at first, i was a very bitter baby about it. like i was so pissed. the i realized, after being confronted  by my sister about my bitter babyness and reading a section of my self help book lol, that i was being inconsiderate and entitled. so i had to reflect. i had to realize that i am not entitled to gifts because i had a bad year. there are simply just more important things to worry about. like moving the fuck out!!! and after that honestly i was chillin. i was just like yeah whatever about it. and i gave gifts to my siblings which felt quite nice.

AND ALSO I ENDED UP GETTING STUFF ANYWAYS SO IT WAS NO BIG DEAL!!!!!!

anyways;

ILLUSION OF LIFE DISNEY BOOK!!!!

this was quite the pleasant surprise. i was really not expecting my mom to get this lol.

i really wanted this book because. well idk i'm just a nerd fr. i've really been getting into books lately. physical books. i want to get art books for learning but also art books that like showcase processes and shit yk like the "The Art of _" series of disney books yk stuff like that. and also i really wanna start animating again which is why i wanted. i've been watching a lot of animated shit and getting jealous because i'm not animating lol. it is stupid i know. but now i've got this massive fuckin book i am no longer allowed to slack. i WILL be reading this shit and i will try to suck every bit of information i can out of it. and this is my reminder; i WILL START ANIMATING AGAIN!!! I AM MANIFESTING IT!!!! I WILL FUCKING DO IT DAMMIT.

my mom was surprised that i wanted this book. she deadass thought she bought the wrong thing because she thought it was so ridiculous that i really wanted a book for christmas out of all things. but i made it known that i was very happy about it and she thinks it's weird lol.

EXTERNAL CD BURNER THINGY!!!

(i immediately decorated it with stickers after this first picture)

i've mentioned i've been making cd's and shit here...i think. but because my laptop doesn't have cd thingy (idk the terms okay i might be a nerd but i'm stupid as well) i've had to burn my cds using my mom's desktop that sits in the dining room which i HATED. so i was always avoiding making cds because of how uncomfortable it was sitting in there just to make them. so i asked for this as one of the things i really wanted. i've already made 10 new cds and i'm currently as of writing this at 1 in the morning am burning the entirety of lucky star on a blank dvd just to test it bc i've never burned a dvd before. i feel like i shouldn't be inhaling these fumes this much so i'm gonna make sure not to over use this thing.

THING I DIDNT TAKE A PICTURE OF LOL

my sister got me some new beads from the dollar tree. i put them with my other beads so i don't really feel like taking pictures of them. they were just letters, numbers, and some pony beads. we made bracelets and i taught her how to make a bead lizard. that was extremely chaotic. i literally forgot what i was doing and had to pull up a tutorial XD.

aaaand that's all! i think my dad is gonna send us some stuff. i usually get a sketchbook every christmas but i fucked up because i didn't make it known to my mom that i needed one. i did let my dad know so hopefully he pulls through. i will be fine if that's it. aaaand maybe a new stylus for my android tablet because that broke a week or 2 ago and i'm SUFFERING greatly because of it.

christmas was okay. the energy in the air was a bit dead. it kinda just felt like another day. but we did play some games and fuck around early in the afternoon after everyone was woke but after that we just like idk. went about our day i guess? we didn't even watch a movie!!! but like a lot of us were tired, including me. i had NOT gotten good sleep last night holy shit it was bad. nonstop tossing and turning. even my daydreams weren't helping.

speaking of which, i have to end this now because i am fucking tired goodnight.