I’m closer than I’ve ever been to having an actual boyfriend right now. So much has happened since my last blog so I will go into detail day by day what happened. Last Saturday I went to a party with my girl friends, maybe I will talk about it one day when ill have the time but this guy talked about this party so I said to him on Sunday somethi » Continue Reading
There is a chance that I kinda went out spontaneously with the guy I talked about in my last blog... My god, this is so embarrassing... This Sunday I had to go buy some things for a Mishloch Manot. If you guys aren't familiar with this thing, it's basically a fancy gift given to your friends or other people in Purim, a Jewish holiday that is celebrated right now. I didn't have to buy it but I real... » Continue Reading
This week, I attended a close friend's birthday dinner at a Chinese restaurant. At first, I hesitated to go because I barely knew the other people who were invited. However, I realized that I was going not for them but to show respect for my friend. And if I ended up not enjoying it, I could always leave. When I got there, I saw the two girls I know. Everything was cool, but one of them mentioned ... » Continue Reading
I have a little crush on someone from my class and I just see it going downhill. Not just going, crushing down and blowing up. I might exaggerate but gosh how embarrassing. I wish I could just do something about it but all of the options would make it worse. Ok explanation: The last time I had a serious school crush was in 9th grade. I am in 11th grade now. Since then I've never really thought abo... » Continue Reading
One of my friends can be quite annoying. While it may sound harsh, it's simply how it is. I don't know if she's just being open with me because she feels comfortable around me or if she genuinely has a serious lack of self-awareness, but sometimes, her behavior makes me uncomfortable. I’ve realized that I must be more selective about my interactions to maintain my peace and well-being. So here is ... » Continue Reading
So much has happened since my last blog, and I don't even know how to begin to update you. First, my school and I went on a school trip and it was really and truly enjoyable, I had the chance to talk with all of the people in my grade. Including those I didn't know existed lol. But overall, this experience had a significant impact mostly on me as an individual. I realized who should be with me and... » Continue Reading
Here is an update about the writing I talked about in previous blogs. So like I said I planned to start writing my own stories online. When I looked where to post it I thought maybe on opening a site but since I don't know how to do that I decided to post it on ao3. Yeah, I know, this website is traumatizing indeed, but it is the biggest platform I know. Also, it's more casual than the other websi... » Continue Reading
maybe the title is a little bit dramatic but it is the truth. I feel like I cant keep the promise I promised to myself and keep on doing past mistakes. Like i said in previous blogs, i said im gonna stop looking for dating boys and start focusing on things I care about like hobbies and spending time with friends. but it feels impossible maybe for two weeks it was fine and easy but I kinda feel lik... » Continue Reading
based on my thoughts and things that happened lately I think I got something on my mind. I think I will officially stop look for a relationship and males attention for now. and the big thing wait until marriage.yeah I know that it’s something which might not happen at 16 but still, not even look for someone is not easy for me tbh. social media kills romance, its so pointless and cheap having thi... » Continue Reading
If there is something I want to do so bad is to start writing my own stories somewhere online. I am not a big reader or writer, but I feel it should be done. Because no one else can come up with such a creative story. This is actually interesting. I am planning on writing a story about a situation I am in with someone at my school where we barely did friendly activities/ had deep talks and things ... » Continue Reading
I have no idea why I am upset right now. If you look at it this way, I didn't have something so special, I went to school and had a very easy English test. Saw my girl friends and went home. But something is missing... I can't point it out but it's just not it. Do I really want to live life this way? Do I really want to do the same things every day for my entire life? Do I really want to live in t... » Continue Reading
I'm writing this because I know no one will tell my friends this is the way I feel and can do nothing about it since no one here knows me IRL. my ed is starting to ruin my daily life again. I believe this is all under control. I won't suffer from hunger b"h but it still isn't easy. I've never been to doctors because I don't eat and stuff but there is definitely a change in the way I see this topic... » Continue Reading