my ed

I'm writing this because I know no one will tell my friends this is the way I feel and can do nothing about it since no one here knows me IRL.

my ed is starting to ruin my daily life again.

I believe this is all under control. I won't suffer from hunger b"h but it still isn't easy.

I've never been to doctors because I don't eat and stuff but there is definitely a change in the way I see this topic and my body.

Whenever I see people I haven't seen in a while they tell me how much I got skinned. Which is kinda weird, isn't it? - like yeah, but is it that noticeable? Either way, I feel like I can't eat.

I can't eat in the morning breakfast. I just can't. Before 13:00 nothing gets into my body besides water. After that, I might eat small things with 400 cal maxx as lunch and dinner every day.

 I hate to do it this way but I have no choice, it's really hard for me to think of these things even tho I know I can't hide it for so long and need to do something about it.

-another thing, I hope this won't change my health profile in the military. If there is something I want is to be a soldier and soldiers should eat good meals and not care about how much cals in their food,,,

this is really fcked up. this is the second time I ever said something about this online ever after more than three years would you believe it? I still don't...