Hello world Not much has changed from my last blog posts Which is really weird to think about I’m trying to uproot everything And be entirely different But still me of course It’s gonna be great And so many people I love will be around And I finally feel at peace And capable of absolutely anything I remember I am brave and strong And it feels good to know I’m recognized and understood » Continue Reading
Laugh out loud I have no idea how to start this without it being so blunt. I just finished reading some of my last entries up until "2nd year". Anything past that would probably make me vomit. I have no idea what kind of void has sucked the life out of me and where it went but things are definitely a lot different than they were a year ago. The beginning of second year was fine until shit start... » Continue Reading
recently ive been hearing a lot about death and also having a lot of close calls (many cars have almost hit me as of late for some reason) one day you can literally just die, something in your artery explodes or your liver screenshots and thats it you're gone. No way to save you, no way to prevent it, no way to know. Or you do know and you have to dread that day, living everyday on eggshells? Or i... » Continue Reading
Second week of school. Not drowing yet. Surprisingly, im doing pretty good. I'm not on top of everything but I am managing. I've been meeting a lot of new people and learning a lot more about being social. Sometimes I worry that my personality is overbearing or I am too loud. Today I met someone who others would probably describe as overbearing or loud, but I think they're so funny and cool. Over... » Continue Reading
Today I woke up at like 2. Stayed home doing essentially nothing until like 7 when marshipoo called me and asked to hang out. Since I skipped gym I told them I wanted to go for a really long walk and they suggested their cool fun idea called baja blast adventure. I'll let them explain that at their own point. Our adventure led us to a few places. We passed by Bernard then ended up somewhere west ... » Continue Reading
Literally. No energy to do anything ever. Low battery. Last week of work. Ten hour shift tmro. When will it finally feel like I care again. Sigh sigh. Maybe I need to sleep for a week straight. » Continue Reading
helo currently struggling to sleep and hungry and tired and eight hour shift tmro but a friend migght be picking me up and we'll be hanging which is cool. its so funny talking to him cuz he knows more about my childhood than i do LOL pretty much when i was around 8 or 9 my cousins lived in my aunts friend's basement. i remember him very vaguely. i didnt hang around him much because i was really sh... » Continue Reading
right now im on a quick break at work before my next class. im doing some driving school and thinking about how im going to spend the rest of my day. tomorrow night i have a a biology test which i totally forgot about. either i can go to campus tomorrow early and leave early, although the studio isnt open until 5:30... so i might just sneak into the studio and do my lecture test there. or i'll jus... » Continue Reading