idk for how long I can stand this fucked up life in a war. I want to cry and scream and jump from the highest building I know, I can't hear anymore about terror attacks, Islamic extremism/ jihadism, "Palestine" or basically anything like that which wants me out of the world, and for what??? for religion, obviously people who don't live here see this more as a land-war but obviously, if this land w... » Continue Reading
Okay, so I want to share with you all a dream that I had yesterday, which might be a warning/ a sign for me. So the dream started when I was at my house with two girls and one day, the two girls were my classmates and they're really nice but the guy isn't. idk what it is about him but I just don't like him, we used to be in some kind of thing back in mid-2023 but not really serious because I didn'... » Continue Reading
I have just thought about it recently. Whether if it's a career, family, marriage, school, abode, or whatever I have to choose it. I can choose life by, first of all, live. But not just in a literal means but also as enjoying what this world has. Whether it's going on vacations, sports, seeing nature, or visiting family. I can't imagine my life without the things and the people I love. And also no... » Continue Reading
Whenever I look at pictures from the 00s - medieval time I'm like "omg this is literally the coolest thing ever I wish I could dress this way" - but obviously I can't :/ I can but I don't have enough confidence to do so... if I could I would definitely wear what I want. I usually think about it when I see these huge fur coats, Japanese fashion especially gyaru, long medieval/Victorian dresses, any... » Continue Reading
okay I try to make it as simple as it is. So I am back in school and I fucking hate it, half of the people there I usually don't speak with but those I do are so nice and I love my girly girls who make my school experience so much easier and funnier. BUT. There is a big but. Every year in this period between September- November I start to act like I have some kind of a crush on one of my classmate... » Continue Reading
It's been three weeks since I posted here for the last time but so has been going on with my life since. first of all, I stopped the guy I was talking to. thankfully. It wasn't easy to do, but I think it was a lesson for me. also, it showed me what kind of boys this generation has. unfortenetly. trying to "act like a man" or show off the way you do is totally pointless. it just shows that he could... » Continue Reading
before I start complaining about my life I want to share with you my thoughts about my last trip I went to the city of god this weekend, if I didn't have faith I would have started hating this city. The experience was really unpleasant, I felt like I was in a shopping race or "partying all night" kind of vibe and sorry, this is not my thing. I'd rather visit holy sites much more than go shopping o... » Continue Reading
I'm losing my mind trying to understand what he wants from me. we were supposed to meet alone just the two of us. I was so excited about it because it meant for me that he probably sees me the way I see him. but his boss put him for another two hours at the cafe he works at and I thought he was lying to me to go meet with someone else. I took it so hard and cried all night and listened to depresse... » Continue Reading
I want to scream and yell and blow up. so I already made a blog about my love life but I didn't explain anything :/ so almost a month ago I met someone when I visited the big city with my friend (we met through her) he was very flirty and we both talked about our life and past relationships and partners for like two hours. I've never been in a real relationship. more like almost a relationship tha... » Continue Reading